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Some big changes came into my life last week. Some were out of the blue and some I have been waiting for for a while. I had been going back and forth with my doctor about my surgery. My insurance company was giving me the run around about surgery. First they said, I needed it, then they wouldn’t approve me for it. I had to switch doctors to get a second opinion. To make a long Story short, I have a full tear in my ACL. My leg is completely unstable and still , after 4 monhts post accident, gives way and buckles at moments of stress. There is 100% no way I could ever competitively wrestle with my leg the way it is. I finally got a surgery date of January 16th. So I will be laying low for a while. I was a little bummed about the surgery. I’m a major gym rat so the thought of not being able to do leg days for 6 to 9 months was agonizing to think about. Not being able to train BJJ or wrestle for that same amount of time literally put me into depression.I started making plans for my down time. I knew I wouldn’t be raking in money from wrestling for a while so I started looking into other avenues of bringing in income. I was web cam-ing on Herbicepscam.com a lot and I was working on getting my personal trainer cert and nutrition certs. The money issue didn’t bother me too greatly. I have savings, I just prefer not to touch that. I just didn’t like the idea of my life as I knew it changing so much and not being able to be a bigger part of wrestling. Well as it turns out, the universe must want me to be involved in wreslting. I got a phone call from kink.com about guest directing for a few shoots on Ultimate Surrender. I was totally excited about doing it so I said yes, then they say, “really, you’ll do it…..would you consider doing it full time” I said yes without hesitating. I did however take the weekend to think everything through. I knew I”d have to move to San Francisco. I’ve lived in Los Angeles all my life. All my family is in LA all my booty calls are in LA. This was a serious move. I went up to San Francisco and spoke with the owner and next thing I know I’m hire full time. I was extremly excited. I think I love this site more than any fan in the world does. I appreciate the hard work that goes into it but I appreciate the fetish itself. I really love strong women. I really love women who compete in anything. I feel lucky that I have control over this site. To be able to book the girls I wanna see, to train them and make them warriors. I feel like I can put a lot of love into this site that wasn’t there before simply because it’s a priority to me. I’m in the middle of moving to San  Francisco but with this surgery things will be tricky. I will have to have the surgery first and then I will have to wait to be able to walk so I can kinda move my stuff into my new place. I will most likely need to hire movers. That is gonna be hard for me becuase I hate HATE HATE asking for help. 🙁

Anyway, that’s the news. Stay posted for new and exciting shoots on Ultimate Surrender and when Im able to, I will be back on the mats

I’m sure most of you have heard about Measure B passing in LA county this last election on Nov 6th. Measure B requires porn stars to wear condoms for any and all videos shot within the Los Angeles Country. That means guys must wear condoms for scenes with women or men and Women must use dental Dams in scenes with other women. I’m am not in utter shock that this measure passed but I am in utter shock that it was even on the ballot. Whether you watch porn or not, I’m sure you have read articles or seen stuff in the news about the proposition to mandate the use of condoms in porn. I’m sure most of you who don’t watch porn probably thought, “yeah people should wear condoms when they have sex” and so you voted Yes without understanding what you were doing. I’m sure your intentions were good but the road to hell is paved with good intentions.  The LA times wrote a pretty decent article endorsing the “NO ON B” stance. The only problem I had with the article in the LA times was that it likend the use of condoms for the “protection of the worker” to that of the use of a helmet on a construction worker “for the protection of the worker”. My problem with this analogy is that the sale of the end product of what ever a construction worker is working on does not directly correlate to the fact that the construction worker wore that helmet.  A business owner doesn’t decide NOT to buy a property because he saw the construction workers wearing helmets when they were building the structure. Nor does a business owner decide to buy a property purely because he DID see the construction workers wearing helmets.

A better analogy would be Runway models and for the sake of making it easy I will refer to run way models as female but males are included here as well. Run way models look a certain way to sell products. The way they look directly correlates to the sale of what ever product they are modeling ( sound familiar?) Most successful and sought after runway models are extremely tall and thin. Some are naturally thing while others put themselves at risk with eating disorders to maintain the desired run way look. The model puts herself at risk so that she can work. Her job is to sell the clothing she’s modeling. Let’s say there were a law passed in California that required all runway models to be within what the government considered a “healthy weight” category because being under these weight was putting the model at a health risk and also causes young people to develop eating disorders since they are seeing these bone thin models as role models.  Let’s say this was the chart hypothetically so you guys have an idea of where I’m going with this.

What do you think would happen to run way models in California? They would move, there would no longer be runway shows in California. Designers still would use the waif thin models for their shows because that’s what sells. Teen girls and boys will still be influenced by the waif look and still develop their own body dysmorphia problems. There will be NO change to the fashion industry other than the fact there will be no more runway models in California.  This is much like what is going on with porn. So if Porn is being told what to do by the government thanks to you voters , then why not mandate healthful weights for Models? They are putting themselves and the public at risk….inspiring eating disorders and self image problems., heck why not ban contact sports those guys put themselves at risk…..maybe boxers should wear body condoms since they get blood on each other and put each other at risk. Then while we are at it, let”s ban all any extreme sport like river rafting, sky diving motor cross, even nascar ( there’ve been a few deaths from those) lets make it so no one ever puts themselves at a risk. Let’s stop driving cars…those have killed a few people……of course I’m going extreme but every extreme measure starts with a small step. If a measure such as my hypothetical runway model one were on the same ballot as measure B, I am willing to bet that people wouldn’t have voted to mandate this hypothetical model weight measure…..so why did they vote to mandate condoms in porn. People like to pick on porn. People in porn are pariahs, we are seen as lesser people because of what? because we have sex? so you think you should be able to boss us around and tell us how to do every single thing we do because we sin differently than YOU?

What the voters who thought they were doing good did was unknowingly open the gateway for their own rights to be taken away. it’s baby steps towards having the government run your life in every way. You poor sad sheeple.

I went to see the “Book of Mormon” musical at the Pantages Theater. I’m not a big fan of Musicals. I never have been. I’m really not a big fan of muscials that have been formed after 1998. Modern Musicals sound like utter garbage to me. They may have decent stories but the music and singing is so shrill and horrific that it has utterly turned me off to going to see them. Shows like Wicked, for example, have such horrible singing that it has ruined the entire show for me. It sounds like the characters are screaming their lines out with no melody or skill, just yelling lines…it’s god aweful. The story is beautiful and clever but damn I can’t stand the singing. I was scared that the singing in BOM would be an utter dissapointment. To my delight, it was rather good and melodic. The songs were catchy  but not unique as far as melody. They seemed to have been cut from a mold of all broadway musicals. What set it apart from other shows was the clever lyrics and dancing. The sets or costumes were nothing special so if you’re expecting costume theatrics of the likes of the “lion king” or something, don’t get your hopes up. I didn’t expect any amazing costume design. The characters are mormon missionaries who are notorious for wearing their white dress shirts with a black tie and black “sunday pants” or dress pants. The remainder of the characters were Ugandians dressed in rags so not much flare in their costumes was either.

The story is about Two Mormon MIssionaries who are sent to Uganda to try to baptise and convert the Afrian people. One Mormon Missionary is your typical do gooder named Kevin. A goody two shoes, know it all who wants to be the best of everything he does and has an expectation of going to Orlando Florida for his first mission but is seriously dissapointed when he is paired up with Arnold, the nerdy, ADHD spaz who has actually never read the book of mormon but just does what he’s told cause he’s a follower. It’s an odd couple pairing.

The Tribe of Uganda who is hosting the missionaries is being harrassed by an evil dictator who wants to cut off all the females clits cause the clit is evil and women shouldn’t be able to have pleasure cause it leads to all things evil. Most of the tribe has AIDS and the tribe leader even jokes to the 2 missionaries that if they mess with his daughter, he will give them his AIDS. So the dictator is trying to control the tribe, the tribe is desparate for a solution to their problems and wouldn’t you know, after a whole lot of subplots and funny shenanigans, the guy they end up going to for help is Arnold, the kid who has never read the bible and who is a major “screw up” but who is desparately trying to impresse people so he makes up things about the book of mormon to try to get the tribe to find it interesting enough to convert. Arnold is a huge sci fi nerd so he mixes in stories of Darth Varder and the death Star and stories of the mormon founder, Joseph Smith fucking a frog to rid himself of AIDS. The Afriacans are hooked on the religion and decide to convert. Arnold single handedly converts 20 africans and this pleases the Elders of the church back in the states so they come to Africa to thank him personally. The Africans want to show their appreciation of Arnold as well so they decide to put on a play for the elders to show them everything they have learned, included the part about Joseph smith fucking a Frog so that he wouldn’t have to fuck a baby to cure his aids. The elders are extremely offended and kick Arnold and his partner who during some of the Shenanigans had dumped Arnold as a friend and then gotten in to some trouble with the evil dictator and got a Book of Mormon shoved up his ass. Kevin realizes that Religion is good, even if it’s all a bunch of mad of crap, because it helps people cope with the shitty things in their life. Before the Africans where using the phrase “hasa Diga eebowai” to cope with their issues…….but now they had awesome stories about Joseph Smith curing AIDs with frog fucking to make them have faith that things could get better. It was a cute play and a good moral. I was raised Mormon so I found a lot of the things in the play to extremely hysterical. I really was entertained by the flamboyantly gay missionary who was telling Kevin and Arnold about the “mormon trick” of just shutting off all your confusing thoughts so that you just didn’t think about them….thoughts like being gay….just shut it off and ignore it cause that’s what mormons do…..and then another mormon chimes in about how his dad use to beat his mom when he was a kid and he used the mormon trick as well and just “shut it off” its all rather humourous and sad if you know mormons.

Any fart…..that’s my review. I thought it was really delightful, mostly cause there was toilet humor and that is always hysterical but it was cute and it’s not forcing religion down your throat but it does put a nice spin on things AND it explains a lot about what the mormon faith is which I think is nice for those ignorant people out there who think mormons are evil. I recommend this show to anyone.

Happy Halloween Folks. I went out this last weekend for a big party. I dressed up as super girl and tooks some pix of myself in my hotel room before i went out to the party. I need to be better at taking pictures while I am out at events. I always bring my camera but I never take pictures. BAH> Anyway. nothing too crazy happened at the party. A few weeks back I re-injured my knee. Some of you may know or have read in a previous blog that I tore my ACL a few months back. I’m waiting for my Insurance to schedule me an appointment. In the meantime, while I’ve been waiting for the surgery approval, I have re injured the knee two times. I have notified my insurance company and they are rushing the processes a little more so that I don’t get any worse. So with that said, you should know that I am in pain 24/7. Walking is hard and walking in heels is even harder. I  don’t like being around drunk people currently because they get sloppy and if they bump into me they will probably snap my knee off my body. People drink and do other types of things at parties. People get really excited as well. I was nervous the entire time that some drunk fuck would do something retarded and end up snapping my knee. So I wasn’t able to really relax at the party. I did end up having a good time. I found a lounge chair in the pool area and sat down and made everyone come to me if they wanted to talk or hang out. I felt very safe and pretty flipping sexy sitting in the chair. 🙂 So that was my holiday weekend. Not much else to say. I’m going to a smaller party tonight in Costa Mesa to hang out with my OC people. I love that Halloween is an excuse to dress up like a skank. I would do it anyway but at least now all the other girls are comfortable doing it as well ( cause they are in costume)

without further ado, here is my slutty super girl costume. I bedazzled it myself. I changed the skirt that came with it into shorts and jazzed them up as well. Super girl was blond hence the blond Wig….hmmm…what else.. oh yes and i walked like a champ in the heels even when a lame knee.

My fight watching buddy sent me these sexy white shorts. Thanks buddy…I’m sorry all your fighters keep losing 🙁

someone sent me this dress probably about 4 or 5 weeks ago. I haven’t been able to really stand without my knee brace on so I’ve fallen behind on taking sexy pictures for my blogs to say thank you to people who have sent me stuff off my wishlist. I didn’t forget about you guys and I’m not an ungrateful bitch….I just didn’t really feel sexy in a brace. I’m now walking around sans brace and I am doing cardio again…yay…so here come the pix. thank you for your patience and support everyone. I feel the love and it feels so good.

Some of you may have heard on facebook or twitter that I jacked my left knee pretty good the other day. I’m actually sick of writing the story out a dozen times to people individually so I am just going to blog about what happend and what’s going on. I will not be wrestling for the rest of 2012 in a competitive fashion. Don’t worry, I have shot all I can shoot for this year’s Summer Vengeance so the tournament will not be effected.

About 2 days ago, I decided to get back into the swing of things at my grappling gym. I had eased off the morning classes because they were the “Fight team” practices and I didn’t want to slow down the big boys in the class. I decided I would take the class the other morning just because I missed it so much. That day we were working on take downs and take down defense. At the end of class, we did a little sparring. I was going with a “new” guy. We would do a take down then start back from the pummel set up. We got against the wall and he went to hip toss me but he did it the wrong way and rather than pulling me forward he pulled me to the side. I was looking down and I saw my knee cap slide laterally. I heard a really loud “pop” and my vision got a little blurry and I felt a pain that almost paralyzed me. I let out a big yelp and fell to the ground grabbing my knee. Trying not to look like a pussy in front of my boys I just sat there and rolled around until the pain subsided which was about 1 minute. I took some deep breathes, collected myself and was pleased that the pain was gone. I sat on the ground for a minute and bent my knee back and forth. no pain “great” I thought. I get up, take one step and fall on my ass again. It felt as if I had no leg. I could not put any weight on it without it giving way. The boys brought me ice and crutches and a pillow to elevate my knee. One of the guys rushed and got me some anti inflammatory meds. They all sat there and waited for me to get up. I was in really good hands. All the guys were super calm and collected and it made me not panic. I contacted my insurance company. They told me I will have to wait to see my primary. They said if I was in a lot of pain I could go to the Urgent care that wasn’t going to open for another 8 hours anyway. There wasn’t much the urgent care could do for me. I have to wait for the swelling to go down before I see my primary and before he can give me approval for anything like physical therapy or MRIs. It’s a bummer to say the least.  I have been staying off of it, icing it, compressing it, elevating it….my brother is a paramedic and I live with im so I’m in really good hands. I have a pimp cane I walk around with. I can not walk without it. I need a knee brace, without a brace my knee gives way and causes me great pain. I’ve been bed ridden the past few days so I’m catching up on lame tv crap that I’ve never seen before…what the hell are you people watching?

I don’t know that the full scope of this has settled into my brain. I know I will not be able to wrestle this year. I’m not depressed about it though. About this time last year I had surgery and had to take the remainder of the year off as well. I managed pretty well. I will miss wrestling for sure. As I get stability back into my leg I will be able to do boxing, so I guess I will focus on that this year. I actually see it as an opportunity to work on things I have been putting off. I will be doing more cam stuff out of my house since I won’t be working as much wrestling and that gives me an opportunity to talk with my fans more. So I am not upset of feeling sorry for myself. This is very unfortunate but it happens. I never put all my eggs in one basket, I’ve always had a back up plan. So my back up plan is affiliate marketing. I will be posting blogs about videos I do and the links to those videos will be my affiliate link. Any sales made from my blog come partially to me, so please, if you want to join a site, do it through the links on my blog please. THank you.

xoxoxo

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