Archives 2011

There was a long period of time when Dia and I didn’t work together for wrstling videos, mainly due to scheduling conflicts and the fact that we had already shot 10 million vidoes already and the market was saturated with Dia vs. Ariel Videos. Then Dia got an neck injury that put her out of commission for a while. She was still able to do some custom stuff and I happen to have one of the sexy scripted wrestling videos up on my Clips store if y’all are interested. It is “semi” competitive I guess you could say but nothing crazy where we were trying to kill each other. The main objective of the shoot was to show off our sexy legs and feet, which we definately did. Usually the competitive stuff is too competitive to stop and think about being sexy so the semi or scripted stuff tends to be a lot more sensual and sexy. This video depicts us being very flirty and sexy with lots of foot

The end of the year is just around the corner. New Years usually means new resolutions for everyone and new paths we want to take in order to find happiness with ourselves and/or family. Through reading her blogs and talking a little in texts, I’ve found that Dia Zerva decided to take a new years eve vow earlier. She’s stepping out of the spot light and focusing on family and a different career that will allow her to stay close to her family and friends without having to be on the road too much. Dia was infamous for travelling the world to wrestle. She is an international star in the wresting world. What I think most of us take for granted, as just being on lookers, is that girls who travel for session work are never ‘home’. They live out of a suitcase and go from town to town for other people’s amusement like a freakn’ carny. If there are any family emergencies, it’s almost impossible to get home in time to be able to do anything about it. If you have a husband or significant other, you pretty much never see them unless they travel everywhere with you but we wrestlers kinda like guys who have jobs so we can’t exactly take a dude with us everywhere we go.

The sessioning is a daunting task. Just to book sessions is a pain in the ass. You have to get references to make sure you’re not gonna meet up with some psychopath who’s going to try to hurt you. YOu need to get deposits from people so you know your trip will at least cover itself even if 60% of your sessions flake.   YOu need to make sure you go at a time when you’re not going to be stuck due to weather issues. You need to really know your geography so you can figure out which stop will be your next without going too far out of your way. You shell out money upfront for a plane ticket and lodging and hope that guys don’t flake and or cancel on your wrestling matches so you can at least break even.  I personally do not travel for sessions for all the reasons I listed. Its a huge pain in the ass and I just don’t’ find it lucrative enough after all the expenses are said and done. I will, however offer sessions if I am already going out of town for a trip I have planned already.

I have family at home I need to look after, elderly parents and a son. I can’t be gone for too long at a time. It’s not that they can’t function without me, it’s that I can’t function without them. And this my, friends, is a dilemma for all session wrestlers. Most these girls are very sweet women with good hearts and family bonds. We are loyal to a fault. We can’t and wont’ leave family behind. Every family has their trial and tribulations and someone needs to be the glue to keep everything together. Session girls are often that girl in the family. Obviously, I can only express how MY situation is. I can only speculate on every other girl’s situation. I know most these session girls and most of them are the sweetest things you will ever meet, with so much empathy for the world around them that it hurts them deep inside.

Dia Zerva is one of the kindest girls I’ve met in all my years in the adult  and wrestling industry. I’ve seen her go through ups and down in both her personal and professional life. I’ve seen that girl be so sad that it affected her will to do well in a single day and then I’ve seen that girl be so determined that it affected her will to do well over several months. 2010 was definitely Dia’s year. She had more determination inside her than I’ve ever seen in a person. It was a warrior spirit. She broke down personal and professional walls and conquered what many said she couldn’t do. She took all the negative crap in her life, the negative shit that some of these so called “wrestling fans” dumped on her and used it to drive her to do what ever she wanted. She strived on proving some of the wrestling fans who told her she sucked wrong.  I believe 2012 will be another great year for Dia, not in the world we know her in but in her personal life with her family. She’s doing what is right for her. She’s being the glue for her family and I am nothing but supportive of her decision. We love you Dia. We wish you the best. Happy Holidays to you and your family.

Dia’s clips4sale sites are still up and running. You can support her by purchasing clips from any of her stores or simply by emailing her encouraging and kind words. I also advise that you read her blog to find out more details about what’s going on with her rather than emailing other models about her. Get your information directly from the source. I will be blogging about her all month in honor of Dia-cember but i can only blog about my experiences with her and I can’t and won’t speak for her or put words in her mouth…so if you need an answer about her..you’re gonna have to ask her directly 🙂

I did my first real shoot since surgery yesterday. I shot for Kink, not a surprise, that company has been very good to me so I figured I’d give them my first bondage shoot with the new tits :). I was a little scared to do such an intense playful shoot with my new sensitive nipples. Since I have had surgery, my nipples are more sensitive than they have ever been in my life. Just my shirts and bras brushing up against the nipple feels intense to me. I had someone suck on my nipple and it almost made my cry LOL. As scared as I was, I was comforted by the fact that I would be working with Kink and one of their most trusted directors and one of the only guys I will ever let touch my genitals, Orlando. I have 3 guys at kink that I will allow to fondle me, Matt, Orlando and JP ( the pope) I adore all those men, I trust them and they are very talented with their torture/pleasuring, it’s just fucking amazing. I was shooting with Orlando for Water Bondage. A site that hasn’t been updated in years but is still among one of my favorite sites ever to shoot for. Lew Ruben was behind the scenes helping with the technical wet rope bondage and safty matters of the shoot. Lew is one of the most talent, gifts, artistic and creative riggers the bondage industry has to offer. He had a smile on his face the entire time he was showing us new knots and ties. The guy loves what he does and we love him for what he does. I was so happy to be working with such a safe and professional staff for a shoot like this. Water bondage has deep elements of breath play. Breath play, to me, is one of the most mentally challenging and erotic forms of play in BDSM. Whips and chains can do some bruising and excitement, but taking the breath from another human being can go wrote so fast and it really takes some trust and mental toughness to get through. We know that the human body can servive a given amount of time without oxygen, We know we can test our bodies to reach that limit. If you’re not use to it, it can be one hell of a trip for you and that goes for any kind of BDSM play. We know you’re not going to bust into flames playing with hot wax ( at least if you’re doing it right) but that hot wax still hurts like a bitch and the closer you hold that candle the hotter the wax gets and the more unbearable it gets, but you tough it out cause you know it’s just pain and you’ll get through it. Speaking of pain. did I mention my nipples hurt like hell even without bondage. Have you ever had a pressure washer spray your body? any time the water touched my poor little nipples it felt like someone tied me to a pole and had 100 pressure washers blast on me…in reality it’s not that much pressure but my poop nipples perceived it to be like that. So I had to find a happy place and focus on the zip ties digging into my flesh to escape the pain that was on my nipples. The water pressure on these torture devices IS pretty strong…but not as strong as 100 power pressures. When the water was focused on my pink pussy, it felt like I was being electrocuted. It felt exactly like a wired pussy shoot. EXACTLY like it. it was fucking bizzar!.

So I’ve covered the water tortures, spaying and dunking and how much trust it takes to play with someone in this manner. I didn’t cover the fact that rope bondage gets tighter when it gets wet. every breath you breath in collapses the ropes and it gets tighter and tighter. Every breath you breath out is shallowed by the tightening of the rope harness. I use breathing a lot to get through my pain. When I am not allowed to breath through pain, I am forced to suffer great than without. these evil people put me in a chest harness and a choker and it got tighter and tighter through out the shoot, which was very exciting for me.

I think what really impressed me was how strong Orlando is. He literally picked my entire body up by one rope like I was a rag doll. He didn’t even break a sweet. I love strong men because they make me feel vulnerable. I consider myself to be a strong person, mentally and physically so if someone can show me they have strength, it’s a huge turn on for me. I look at them like a challenge, someone I ‘d like to best in a wrestling situation or an all night fuck fest. I love me a challenge and Orlando gave me a challenge as he picked me up and held me down in a tank of water.

I had an amazing time. I am so happy to work with professional that make me feel fear and safety at the same time. I was able to take a few shots on my cell phone between scenes. and since there was a lot of time between scene ( lots of safety checks and what not) I played around with some apps on one of the photos. I will let you all know when this scene is released. It should be out soon.

I had some lingerie on my wish list and I must have been a very good girl because someone very special bought me some really really awesome bras and panties. I love Victoria Secret lingerie. It certainly is better quality than the stuff I get at other places. It’s got so much class to it as well. Alas, it’s rather expensive and for how many pairs of panties and bras a girl is required to fulfil a week without doing laundry, I don’t think I can make VS my only brand of undies I wear. These bras are so nice that I almost never want to wear them anywhere in fear I might ruin them. Ugh I’m so trashy sometimes. LOL. I’m going to make it a point to wear these bras and panties out all the time to try to classy myself up a little.  But I love love love these panties and bras. Thank you so much to my Kiwi for buying me these beautiful under garments. Thank you thank you  thank you . I love them, These pix are for you and now I’m sure the rest of my readers are saying THANK YOU KIWI. These are push up bras that make my titties about a 34-E cup….holy mackerel

xoxooxo

if you’d like to buy me something to wear and post sexy pix in or just feel like spoiling me with nerdy gadgets and electronics, I do have an amazon wish list you can check out and see if anything tickles your fancy. Happy Holidays.

I don’t know how I did it. I don’t think I did anything special really I think I just got lucky. I had a computer that would power on and never boot and I never did anything with it. I had all kinds of content on that son of a bitch. I had old pix of me and my ex tag teaming vanilla bitches and videos of me getting spanked by guys and girls and videos of me spanking other girls. It was fun going through the old content and what’s even better is that I’ll be putting up the clips I thought I had lost onto my Clips4sales.com store. This is great news since I haven’t shot anything since my surgery and I didn’t have a lot of revenue coming in from my clip store but now I can upload these bad boys and hopefully make some money and you guys get to see some long lost footage of cute lil ole me 🙂 Yay.. Today is a great day!! It’s like when you put on a jacket you haven’t worn cause it’s been summer and you put your hand in your pocket and find $5 you didn’t know was there. Seriously this shit makes me so happy.

Well its holiday season and sure enough, super psycho ex’s from many years past are trying to weasel their ways back into my life. It happens every year. It seemed to cool off the last 4- 5 years while I was dating my ex but I guess words gets out I’m single and suddenly the tramps come around trying to capitalize on what they think is easy prey. I can’t blame them; girls who go through breakups are pretty slutty and easy the first 3-9 months after a big break up. Not me. I’m perfectly happy sitting at home editing porn videos and getting a paid site ready to launch next year. Actually I’d rather sit at home and play dress up in various wigs and costumes than go out on a date…..which explains the featured pictures LOL.

My friends however must think I’m sad and pathetic because it seems like every one of my girl friends is trying to hook me up with someone and it’s never a hot chick. All my girl friends have boyfriends and their boyfriends have friends and the boyfriend of my friend is always curious why I’m single and why I dated a jerk for so long whan whan whan…blah blah blah…seems more like my friend’s boyfriends want to fuck me and they can’t so they just want to hook a buddy up with me and live vicariously through them. I sometimes fantasize about doing it..rocking some poor smoe’s world and letting him go back and tell the world about it and have him talk about it to every single person when the conversation of sex comes up for the rest of his life. But, I”m a nice person and I don’t want to break any hearts and I know how guys are…if you give em good sex they will stalk you forever…they get so pussy whipped so fast. Guys fixate on sex and hot chicks all the time. Girls are the same way. You treat em nice buy them dinner take em out…sling em some pussy and they are at your door the next date with a uhaul truck ready to take your name.

Sex is such a powerful thing. If someone desires you, you can have so much power over them. Which answers the question “why did you stay with a jerk for so long”. The guy slung some good dick and I really wanted him. I desired him so much that I put up with hell for so long. I’ve found recently that I can use desire to my advantage. I’ve been working camshows like a hustler. You guys want goods and I have the goods. It does make me feel powerful. I thought wrestling was the ultimate form of dominance but I’m finding that desire is truly the ultimate form of dominance. On the down side the more I feel powerful and desired the less in touch with reality I feel. I feel distant to people.

This boob job has been a blessing and curse. I feel amazing, I feel like I look amazing. I am a creature of habit and I tend to go to the same places day in and day out. I see the same people I saw 2 months ago before I had surgery and these people are suddenly “checking me out” asking me out and such. It makes me hate these people because it shows how shallow they are but I guess I’m shallow for getting the boob job so I can’t complain. Great, now i”m like one of those cunts who posts naked pictures on her fb wall and when a guy comments on it she gets all pissy like ” EXCUSE ME, YOU CAN’T TALK TO ME LIKE THAT” ( sorry that was a random tangent)    I’ve known so many couples that break up shortly after a girl gets a boob job and I know exactly why. The girl gets more attention, the guy feels insecure. both parties change a little but it’s only short term, however when you’re in the relationship you dont know it’s only short term. Getting new boobs is like getting a new computer..you want to play with them all the time…let your friends come over and compare you specs with theirs, then in about 6 months the “newness” dies away and you’re find yourself kicking the things because they aren’t working like they use to. I love my boobs, me and my Ex were on the outs LONG before I got my boobs so I wish I could say my boobs were the demise of our relationship but seriously, his cold black heart was the demise of our relationship.

So girls get new confidence with the new boobs, they walk taller, stick their tits out more, push their butts out more…they get a little sexier just because they feel that much better about themselves. Then it’s an awesome cycle upwards. The confidences attracts attention and the attention attracts more confidence. It just keeps going and going. Some girls get “addicted” to surgeries because of the positive attention they get from their first one. Surgery is a quick fix and give instant gratification and instant results. It’s much easier than having to actually eat right and exercise or do makeup. I’m done with surgery for now, I prefer a nice muscle butt to some of these man made things I’ve seen walking around. Have you guys seen these body contouring surgeries that are hitting the nation? wow it’s crazy they take fat from one place an move it to another. I’m 100% for it if they can live a lifestyle that will maintain the results. Although I do have to admit, like a hypocrite that I do get a little pissed off when I find out girls have butt implants of some sort whether it be fat implants or silicone. I couln’t build my boobs to be bigger but I built my ass in the gym fair and square…so I do get a little jealous I guess. I hate being a hater.

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Back to dating and how crazy my friends are. I’m in my 30’s I’m too old to hit up night clubs and I’m too busy with building my work to be able to do the fun stuff that old rich people can do. I can’t travel unless it’s for work even if I could travel I have no one to go with. My son is always in school and all my friends are married and/or in relationship and i don’t want to hang out with couples. Hanging with couples as a single chicks is the most uncomfortable thing in the world to me. Maybe Im just nurotic but I feel like the couple is always trying to have a threesome with me. or the chick is going to try to lez out with me just to turn her guy on. I’m all for lezzing out with her but not for that reason. I like to lez out on MY TERM! So I get random calls and texts from friends always inviting me out to meet some dude….AGAIN…it’s never a hot chick….bah.

So where does this leave me. I’m just going to focus on my work. i’ll be doing a lot of herbicepscam.com and catfightlive.com show. I hope my catfighlive site picks up some on 2012, well because I want to make money. I am focusing on making money, buying a home building a pay site and traveling the world for my BJJ tournaments. I will be competiting in real tournments in 2012, march will be my first one. What does any of this have to do with you, the reader. Well nothing but I’m just letting you all know I’m more readily available to have you desire me so I can have power over you . bruhahahahha

Happy Holidays you little monkeys. I love you all. Peace!

We did a catfightlive.com webcam while we were doing a production at webringit.com. We only allotted  1 hour for the webcam per day because we had lots and lots of videos to shoot for our video production. We weren’t able to shoot all the content we were aiming to shoot but we did get some great matches in the 2 days we did shoot. Among my favorite match up was a match up between Arianna and Cheyenne Jewel in which the rules were that they could only submit each other using leg scissors. The match was back and forth action for 30 minutes. I was at the edge of my seat the entire time. The girls were able to talk a little about the match in this interview. They were also able to show off how ridiculously amazing their asses look in tight blue jeans…meow…Enjoy the interview.

Mutiny came into town the week before my Surgery. I Had just flowen in from London and my landing home pressent was a sex fight with one of my favorite french canadian girls, Mutiny. I’ve worked with this gal a handful of times. I absolutely love her attitude. She does some amazing pro style stuff but she’s underrated in her competitive wrestling. The girl has grappling skills but what she does the best is seduction. There were moments during our “sex fight” where she would hypnotize me with her soft voice and ample breasts. She would start kissing me and I would forget where I am and she was able to get out of my holds…..ugh….she’s a tricky little devil and I think that’s why I love her so much. I’d like to share the match I had with her with you. It’s listed on her site. 

enjoy xoxo

Today, We Bring It did our first live webcam broadcast for catfightlive.com. We went on the air at 10am PST. I know it was hard for a lot of you to log on at that time. Most of you work or have obligations at an hour like that and were not able to tune in. But do not fret. I did film some Q & A time and I’m sharing it here for you for free. Arianna and Chantel did an amazing job during the photoshoot. They threw in some great real belly punching and the slow motion action of the photo shoot was amazing for the streaming webcam. At some point we would like to do a competitive match live but we are on a schedule that doesn’t permit that at this time. Arianna and Chantel were very charming and personable with the viewers we did have and I was delighted with the interaction as were the viewers based on the feed back we have gotten so far.

So tommorrow, if you can, please try to tune in at 10am PST at www.catfightlive.com to interact with Cheyenne Jewel and Arianna as they do another custom photo shoot and interact with you. For now, enjoy 14 minutes of the 1 hour show we did today. 🙂

I don’t enter contest ever so I don’t grovel for votes often but I decided I would enter a bikini contest because I want a free bikini hahah . So please vote for me, give me a 5 as that is the highest you can give a girl. I’m not sure how many times you can vote but if you vote everyday it certainly won’t hurt.  I really appreciate your support folks. xoxoox

Vote here.