Well its holiday season and sure enough, super psycho ex’s from many years past are trying to weasel their ways back into my life. It happens every year. It seemed to cool off the last 4- 5 years while I was dating my ex but I guess words gets out I’m single and suddenly the tramps come around trying to capitalize on what they think is easy prey. I can’t blame them; girls who go through breakups are pretty slutty and easy the first 3-9 months after a big break up. Not me. I’m perfectly happy sitting at home editing porn videos and getting a paid site ready to launch next year. Actually I’d rather sit at home and play dress up in various wigs and costumes than go out on a date…..which explains the featured pictures LOL.
My friends however must think I’m sad and pathetic because it seems like every one of my girl friends is trying to hook me up with someone and it’s never a hot chick. All my girl friends have boyfriends and their boyfriends have friends and the boyfriend of my friend is always curious why I’m single and why I dated a jerk for so long whan whan whan…blah blah blah…seems more like my friend’s boyfriends want to fuck me and they can’t so they just want to hook a buddy up with me and live vicariously through them. I sometimes fantasize about doing it..rocking some poor smoe’s world and letting him go back and tell the world about it and have him talk about it to every single person when the conversation of sex comes up for the rest of his life. But, I”m a nice person and I don’t want to break any hearts and I know how guys are…if you give em good sex they will stalk you forever…they get so pussy whipped so fast. Guys fixate on sex and hot chicks all the time. Girls are the same way. You treat em nice buy them dinner take em out…sling em some pussy and they are at your door the next date with a uhaul truck ready to take your name.
Sex is such a powerful thing. If someone desires you, you can have so much power over them. Which answers the question “why did you stay with a jerk for so long”. The guy slung some good dick and I really wanted him. I desired him so much that I put up with hell for so long. I’ve found recently that I can use desire to my advantage. I’ve been working camshows like a hustler. You guys want goods and I have the goods. It does make me feel powerful. I thought wrestling was the ultimate form of dominance but I’m finding that desire is truly the ultimate form of dominance. On the down side the more I feel powerful and desired the less in touch with reality I feel. I feel distant to people.
This boob job has been a blessing and curse. I feel amazing, I feel like I look amazing. I am a creature of habit and I tend to go to the same places day in and day out. I see the same people I saw 2 months ago before I had surgery and these people are suddenly “checking me out” asking me out and such. It makes me hate these people because it shows how shallow they are but I guess I’m shallow for getting the boob job so I can’t complain. Great, now i”m like one of those cunts who posts naked pictures on her fb wall and when a guy comments on it she gets all pissy like ” EXCUSE ME, YOU CAN’T TALK TO ME LIKE THAT” ( sorry that was a random tangent) I’ve known so many couples that break up shortly after a girl gets a boob job and I know exactly why. The girl gets more attention, the guy feels insecure. both parties change a little but it’s only short term, however when you’re in the relationship you dont know it’s only short term. Getting new boobs is like getting a new computer..you want to play with them all the time…let your friends come over and compare you specs with theirs, then in about 6 months the “newness” dies away and you’re find yourself kicking the things because they aren’t working like they use to. I love my boobs, me and my Ex were on the outs LONG before I got my boobs so I wish I could say my boobs were the demise of our relationship but seriously, his cold black heart was the demise of our relationship.
So girls get new confidence with the new boobs, they walk taller, stick their tits out more, push their butts out more…they get a little sexier just because they feel that much better about themselves. Then it’s an awesome cycle upwards. The confidences attracts attention and the attention attracts more confidence. It just keeps going and going. Some girls get “addicted” to surgeries because of the positive attention they get from their first one. Surgery is a quick fix and give instant gratification and instant results. It’s much easier than having to actually eat right and exercise or do makeup. I’m done with surgery for now, I prefer a nice muscle butt to some of these man made things I’ve seen walking around. Have you guys seen these body contouring surgeries that are hitting the nation? wow it’s crazy they take fat from one place an move it to another. I’m 100% for it if they can live a lifestyle that will maintain the results. Although I do have to admit, like a hypocrite that I do get a little pissed off when I find out girls have butt implants of some sort whether it be fat implants or silicone. I couln’t build my boobs to be bigger but I built my ass in the gym fair and square…so I do get a little jealous I guess. I hate being a hater.
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Back to dating and how crazy my friends are. I’m in my 30’s I’m too old to hit up night clubs and I’m too busy with building my work to be able to do the fun stuff that old rich people can do. I can’t travel unless it’s for work even if I could travel I have no one to go with. My son is always in school and all my friends are married and/or in relationship and i don’t want to hang out with couples. Hanging with couples as a single chicks is the most uncomfortable thing in the world to me. Maybe Im just nurotic but I feel like the couple is always trying to have a threesome with me. or the chick is going to try to lez out with me just to turn her guy on. I’m all for lezzing out with her but not for that reason. I like to lez out on MY TERM! So I get random calls and texts from friends always inviting me out to meet some dude….AGAIN…it’s never a hot chick….bah.
So where does this leave me. I’m just going to focus on my work. i’ll be doing a lot of herbicepscam.com and catfightlive.com show. I hope my catfighlive site picks up some on 2012, well because I want to make money. I am focusing on making money, buying a home building a pay site and traveling the world for my BJJ tournaments. I will be competiting in real tournments in 2012, march will be my first one. What does any of this have to do with you, the reader. Well nothing but I’m just letting you all know I’m more readily available to have you desire me so I can have power over you . bruhahahahha
Happy Holidays you little monkeys. I love you all. Peace!
