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I had a lot of folks asking for my recipe for my famous protein pancakes so I’m gonna share. It’s a recipe I invented through trial and error of trying to incorporate more protein into a regular pancake recipe. I’m pretty proud of this breakfast meal I made. I should patent and trade mark this shit and sell it. But I’m giving away the recipe because I want to help folks

I have included brand names for products. I strongly suggest using the exact product I mention. Through my own trial and error, I have found that these specific products work best for cooking. So don’t substitute anything or you will murder my recipe.

1 cup egg whites
1 cup voskos fat free plain Greek yogurt
1 cup Quakers quick oaks uncooked (dry)
1/4 cup gluten flour ( not gluten free) if u require gluten free do no use this flour and use gf oats however I’ve done this and they pancakes are very flat and not as delicious.
1 scoop chocolate Protowhey protein powder
1 scoop vanilla Protowhey protein powder

Blend everything together in a blender

Heat pan

Cover pan with macadamia nut oil ( I prefer this to coconut oil for cooking) see benefits of macadamia but oil here

Macadmia but oil also has a higher smoke point that coconut oil has so its better for cooking. To find the oil you like best and is most healthful for you, here is a great article about different oils

I don’t use syrup for these pancakes. I make my own jam using strwberries, blueberries and a teaspoon of local organic honey.

If you use this and/or tell others about it please give me credit for it. It took me several trial and error days of slaving at a girl to make this just right.

There it is, enjoy

I saw my super hot doctor yesterday. He said blah blah blah. Nothing important or new. He did said in 2 weeks from now (so in early may) I can start running. That’s good to know since I started running last week. I have nursed my knee and taken very good care if it. I have listened to the doctor and my physical therapist and done everything they have told me. However I feel like the PT has greatly underestimated my strength and persistence. Any thing my PT told me to do I would do. It would be a lot of effort at first but my body adjusts to things well and quickly. If something is hard for me to do, I continue to do it until I master it. Perfect practice makes perfect. I train with great form and quantity. This has served me well in my bjj training as drilling is 99% of how one improves. I sacrificed time with family and friends and myself in order to recover and rehab from this surgery. I spend about 2 hours a day stretching and doing the exercises suggested. Me at my weakest is still better than the average American. I really wish I could afford the type of PT and doctors that a paid professional team athlete gets. I wish I had a sports specific program alas I’m with kaiser and I’m dealt the hand that is given to me. I did switch doctors and pt to find the best person in network. I’m happy with them however I feel they don’t “get me” I understand that there is No possible way for my graft to heal sooner than 6 months but I feel they are being too cautious. It’s sad that in today’s day and age that doctors and hospitals are targets for frivolous law suits. I strongly believe that assholes ruin things for everyone. Of course doctors would prefer to error on the side of safety. I truly do understand it. However, I think every patient is a special case. Not everyone should be handled the same way. The doctors can’t dedicate the time money and effort it takes to proper service all their patience. I’m taking it upon myself to heal myself the best way possible. I have never , in the time after surgery, pushed my body to do more than it could handle. But I certainly have pushed my body beyond what the doctor and pt protocol has allowed. The doc and pt are patting themselves on the backs. “Wow you’re way ahead of our best athletes, you’re the poster child of how this rehab should be” yeah it’s all you doc!! Sure.
At any rate, one thing I can not speed up is the process in which my body starts turning the hamstring graft into an actual acl. That takes 24 weeks even if you are fit as a fiddle and super healer like myself. So right now my knee is still vulnerable. The muscle I have built around my knee is strong and solid and will help protect me. But the graft is weak. I will not be permitted to box or wrestle until mid July. I can drill however as long as I do no pivot. So I will be doing everything and anything I can do in this time. I see a lot of arm bar drills in my future 😉

I’m writing this blog on my iPhone while I commute to work. Ill try to actually proof read this post before I publish it but please excuse the grammar and typos. iPhone touch keyboards tend to change some words with their auto correct feature.
When kink hired me on to direct for ultimate surrender, it was almost like a last minute decision. I was born and raised in souther California. I love the city I lived in. Santa clarita CA is one of the most beautiful cities in all of the west coast. With the beaches an hour west and the mountains an hour east, there is plenty to do on a weekend or holiday. Santa Clarita has some great hiking trails and also hosts my favorite outdoor gun range. Not only is the city beautiful with its accessible nature trails and activities it’s also rich with history. Newhall is a town within the Santa Clarita valley. It is famous for the oak of the golden dreams where goldwas first discovered in Southern California. It is also famous for its “western preservation” thanks to William s. hart. Yes the city is nice and diverse but the real reason I stayed in that city my entire life was because my family lived there. My mom, dad and one of my brothers lived in the SCV. Moving to the Bay Area was a big decision for me. I was leaving everything I’ve ever known behind. When I was looking for places to live in Northern California, I had to take a lot of things into consideration. I wanted a place similar to SCV with good schools districts for my son and in a safe neighborhood with trails to hike but modern enough to have a mall I know sounds stupid but sometime when you live in a place that is beautiful with nature you end up having to drive 30 miles to get to the closest mall. I have a tweenage son who loves to do the mall crawl. So it’s important to have balance. It’s important to be close to nature and still be able to do the American pass time of window shopping in stores. 😉
I looked at several places in the Bay Area. I knew I did not want to live in San Francisco. I’m not a big city kind of girl. I did live in sf for 3 months in the interim of finding a place to live. I do love the city of San Francisco. It’s like they never developed anything after 1960. It has a throwback vibe. Very retro yet ahead of its time. The gas less muni and bart transportation is amazing I’m not sure why every city doesn’t get their shit together and get on this method of transportation. I guess America is so addicted to oil and politicians get too many metaphoric blowjobs from the Middle East to make public transportation independent of oil. C’est la vie. I will say its really nice to walk around in a big city and not be assaulted my smog or pollution.
I looked high and low for a place to live. I knew I’d have to live far outside sf to find a place like SCV. I knew I’d have to commute an hour to work every day but I’m willing to do that. I decided to move to the tri city area. It’s a 53 minute bart ride to San Francisco but that also means that is 53 minutes closer to the SCV so when I go down to visit every weekend I’m an hour closer each way making a 6 hour drive only a 5 hour drive which makes all the difference 😉
So I’m officially moved in to my new place. I have to admit its pretty sad that my place is empty. I gave away most of my furniture. Actually it was involuntarily given away. I stored it at someone’s place and they decided they liked it and I decided they could keep it. Mostly because I didn’t want to move it 300 miles but also because it made them happy. So I’m shopping for new crap for the apartment. Right now I have a mattress in my living room and a TV set up with my Apple TV and that’s about it. It feels lonely in an empty place but I’m hardly home so I don’t have to deal with the solitude too much until night time. My son is still in so cal finishing school until he transfers into jr high. So I’m utterly alone when I come home. The good news is ill start doing web camming again to have some company 😉 and to help fund the new furniture and appliances for my new place. Heheh kidding kinda ;). So that’s the news of the move. I have a movie I had a scene in coming out soon ill post more about that soon.

Well for a normal surgery, 6 weeks is the mark you get to go right back in to doing what you use to do. That’s not the case in an ACL surgery. My hamstring has atrophied a lot. I am allowed to work on strengthening it now. My quad is still a little weak but it is much better than it was 2 weeks post surgery. My knee still has some swelling but I can actually see the shape of my knee cap.

My PT regimen is getting longer and longer every week. We add new things to perform each visit I get with my PT. It takes me about 2 hours to do all the stretching and exercises I’m recommended to do.  Slowly but surely I am regaining my strength and balance. PT is hard but it’s not like the kind of hard a good workout or training session is. It’s a whole lot of effort for small movements. I haven’t been in “pain” in the rehab, save for the stretching. Trying to get my extension on the bad leg to 0 degrees was one of the most torturous physical things I’ve ever done. All the other pain has been mental. I feel like a prisoner in my own body. With the knowledge of knowing what my body “should” be able to do; the things I use to be able to do, not being able to do small things is devastating to my ego. Not being able to do a 10lb single leg curl is someone embarrassing to myself.

I’m very lucky I have the new job at kink which keeps me busy and challenged. If I were idol to sit and dwell on all these things I can’t do, I would go mad. I’d like to say that I’m a warrior and I would tough it out but to be honest this is hard and if I wasn’t forced to keep my mind off of the rehab when I wasn’t working on rehab, I’d be really depressed.

I’m going to jot down what I’m doing for PT, this is more for my own reference down the line if I ever come back to this to see how I handled every thing

I wake up and stretch my knee with it levitated ( leg straight) and let gravity ease the leg into a 0 degree extension. I must hold this for 15 minutes. If you’ve ever done bondage and have been “forced” to stay in a position for any amount of time, you can relate to how annoying this is then add the sever pain of a leg doing what it does NOT want to do. I then do pretty much every leg stretch you can imagine.

3 sets of 10 step ups

3 sets of 10 step downs.

3 sets of 10 “clam shell” with band hip adductors

3 sets of 10 laying face down tighten butt, leg raises backwards

3 sets of 10 quad flexed, straigh let facing up leg raises

on a exercise ball, shoulders on ball, hips up( not allowed to droop) calf raises 3 sets of 10

on exercise ball, single leg raises 3 sets of 10

standing- single leg calf raises 3 sets of 10

single leg half squats 3 sets of 10

3 sets of 10 single leg leg presses

3 sets of 10 single leg laying down leg curls

Note: all single leg exercises are performed on both legs, just one leg at a time

25 minutes on a bike

25 minutes on a stair master

This takes me about 2-3 hours to complete.

after PT is done, I hit upper body weights. I work out different muscle groups each day. I’m excited that I finally was able to do a pull up today, I wasn’t able to do them recently because i was putting torque on my hamstring in a weird way. I am back to being able to do most upper body exercises without any pain. I’m greatly excited that I am able to do the stair master and bike as cardio. It’s not my preferred method of cardio but who cares I’ll take it.

So there it is. I don’t expect much to change in the next 6 weeks except maybe the weights that I’m adding to any of the exercises. I will not get permission to run until may. I wont be able to wrestle for a while 🙁 it’s a slow process.

I didn’t forget about you awesome folks who have been sending me stuff. I couldn’t shoot for a while I have been moving back and forth between LA and SF then I had surgery and I honestly couldn’t pose very cute for pictures. My leg is doing great. Im away ahead in my PT, I’m able to do a little bit of a work out now so my confidence is coming back and I found my camera  ( which was lost in the moving for a while) So now I have no excuses. So here ya go. Thank you for this amazing jacket that matches my cool shoes I picked up for myself the other week. MUAH. love you

I’m 3 weeks post Op. I had to switch to a PT in San Francisco. Kaiser is lame and forced me to do a regular doctor consult before they would give me a PT even though my surgeon in Los Angles had already put a referral. Insurance Politics are lame. no biggie, It’s just a waste of time and money.

I’m feeling okay. At night I’m in some pain but it’s manageable. The pain is from severe patella tendonitis. It feels like someone is rubbing an eraser super fast under my knee cap 24/7. The PT exercises my first PT gave me are getting easy. I’m ready to move on to the next tier of pain. I was able to go to the gym this morning. I haven’t been able to walk very much since I made a 6 hour drive from LA to SF ( doctor would not approve me to fly because my knee could explode like a baked potato in a microwave from the cabin pressure).

I’m in love with my new job at kink. My boss is cool as hell and my team is just great. We are all a bunch of nerds so we “get” each other. It’s pretty rad. I’m really excited for the big US match we have coming out Feb 15th. Its the one I’ve ben Fbing and Tweeting about non stop. The Super Mega Awesome Battle Dream Supreme. Its the video where Syd Blackovich and Dragon Lily come back in as team captians. They pick their teams and each girl is put against another girl on the opposing team for one 8 minute round. There are 12 girls total which means there are 6 rounds. Its some of the most intense wrestling I’ve ever seen and the prize round is off the HOOK And there’s a bonus gang bang scene in there y’all should check out.. yours truly gets it from the 6 winners. 🙂

I’m sure most of you have heard about Measure B passing in LA county this last election on Nov 6th. Measure B requires porn stars to wear condoms for any and all videos shot within the Los Angeles Country. That means guys must wear condoms for scenes with women or men and Women must use dental Dams in scenes with other women. I’m am not in utter shock that this measure passed but I am in utter shock that it was even on the ballot. Whether you watch porn or not, I’m sure you have read articles or seen stuff in the news about the proposition to mandate the use of condoms in porn. I’m sure most of you who don’t watch porn probably thought, “yeah people should wear condoms when they have sex” and so you voted Yes without understanding what you were doing. I’m sure your intentions were good but the road to hell is paved with good intentions.  The LA times wrote a pretty decent article endorsing the “NO ON B” stance. The only problem I had with the article in the LA times was that it likend the use of condoms for the “protection of the worker” to that of the use of a helmet on a construction worker “for the protection of the worker”. My problem with this analogy is that the sale of the end product of what ever a construction worker is working on does not directly correlate to the fact that the construction worker wore that helmet.  A business owner doesn’t decide NOT to buy a property because he saw the construction workers wearing helmets when they were building the structure. Nor does a business owner decide to buy a property purely because he DID see the construction workers wearing helmets.

A better analogy would be Runway models and for the sake of making it easy I will refer to run way models as female but males are included here as well. Run way models look a certain way to sell products. The way they look directly correlates to the sale of what ever product they are modeling ( sound familiar?) Most successful and sought after runway models are extremely tall and thin. Some are naturally thing while others put themselves at risk with eating disorders to maintain the desired run way look. The model puts herself at risk so that she can work. Her job is to sell the clothing she’s modeling. Let’s say there were a law passed in California that required all runway models to be within what the government considered a “healthy weight” category because being under these weight was putting the model at a health risk and also causes young people to develop eating disorders since they are seeing these bone thin models as role models.  Let’s say this was the chart hypothetically so you guys have an idea of where I’m going with this.

What do you think would happen to run way models in California? They would move, there would no longer be runway shows in California. Designers still would use the waif thin models for their shows because that’s what sells. Teen girls and boys will still be influenced by the waif look and still develop their own body dysmorphia problems. There will be NO change to the fashion industry other than the fact there will be no more runway models in California.  This is much like what is going on with porn. So if Porn is being told what to do by the government thanks to you voters , then why not mandate healthful weights for Models? They are putting themselves and the public at risk….inspiring eating disorders and self image problems., heck why not ban contact sports those guys put themselves at risk…..maybe boxers should wear body condoms since they get blood on each other and put each other at risk. Then while we are at it, let”s ban all any extreme sport like river rafting, sky diving motor cross, even nascar ( there’ve been a few deaths from those) lets make it so no one ever puts themselves at a risk. Let’s stop driving cars…those have killed a few people……of course I’m going extreme but every extreme measure starts with a small step. If a measure such as my hypothetical runway model one were on the same ballot as measure B, I am willing to bet that people wouldn’t have voted to mandate this hypothetical model weight measure…..so why did they vote to mandate condoms in porn. People like to pick on porn. People in porn are pariahs, we are seen as lesser people because of what? because we have sex? so you think you should be able to boss us around and tell us how to do every single thing we do because we sin differently than YOU?

What the voters who thought they were doing good did was unknowingly open the gateway for their own rights to be taken away. it’s baby steps towards having the government run your life in every way. You poor sad sheeple.

I went to see the “Book of Mormon” musical at the Pantages Theater. I’m not a big fan of Musicals. I never have been. I’m really not a big fan of muscials that have been formed after 1998. Modern Musicals sound like utter garbage to me. They may have decent stories but the music and singing is so shrill and horrific that it has utterly turned me off to going to see them. Shows like Wicked, for example, have such horrible singing that it has ruined the entire show for me. It sounds like the characters are screaming their lines out with no melody or skill, just yelling lines…it’s god aweful. The story is beautiful and clever but damn I can’t stand the singing. I was scared that the singing in BOM would be an utter dissapointment. To my delight, it was rather good and melodic. The songs were catchy  but not unique as far as melody. They seemed to have been cut from a mold of all broadway musicals. What set it apart from other shows was the clever lyrics and dancing. The sets or costumes were nothing special so if you’re expecting costume theatrics of the likes of the “lion king” or something, don’t get your hopes up. I didn’t expect any amazing costume design. The characters are mormon missionaries who are notorious for wearing their white dress shirts with a black tie and black “sunday pants” or dress pants. The remainder of the characters were Ugandians dressed in rags so not much flare in their costumes was either.

The story is about Two Mormon MIssionaries who are sent to Uganda to try to baptise and convert the Afrian people. One Mormon Missionary is your typical do gooder named Kevin. A goody two shoes, know it all who wants to be the best of everything he does and has an expectation of going to Orlando Florida for his first mission but is seriously dissapointed when he is paired up with Arnold, the nerdy, ADHD spaz who has actually never read the book of mormon but just does what he’s told cause he’s a follower. It’s an odd couple pairing.

The Tribe of Uganda who is hosting the missionaries is being harrassed by an evil dictator who wants to cut off all the females clits cause the clit is evil and women shouldn’t be able to have pleasure cause it leads to all things evil. Most of the tribe has AIDS and the tribe leader even jokes to the 2 missionaries that if they mess with his daughter, he will give them his AIDS. So the dictator is trying to control the tribe, the tribe is desparate for a solution to their problems and wouldn’t you know, after a whole lot of subplots and funny shenanigans, the guy they end up going to for help is Arnold, the kid who has never read the bible and who is a major “screw up” but who is desparately trying to impresse people so he makes up things about the book of mormon to try to get the tribe to find it interesting enough to convert. Arnold is a huge sci fi nerd so he mixes in stories of Darth Varder and the death Star and stories of the mormon founder, Joseph Smith fucking a frog to rid himself of AIDS. The Afriacans are hooked on the religion and decide to convert. Arnold single handedly converts 20 africans and this pleases the Elders of the church back in the states so they come to Africa to thank him personally. The Africans want to show their appreciation of Arnold as well so they decide to put on a play for the elders to show them everything they have learned, included the part about Joseph smith fucking a Frog so that he wouldn’t have to fuck a baby to cure his aids. The elders are extremely offended and kick Arnold and his partner who during some of the Shenanigans had dumped Arnold as a friend and then gotten in to some trouble with the evil dictator and got a Book of Mormon shoved up his ass. Kevin realizes that Religion is good, even if it’s all a bunch of mad of crap, because it helps people cope with the shitty things in their life. Before the Africans where using the phrase “hasa Diga eebowai” to cope with their issues…….but now they had awesome stories about Joseph Smith curing AIDs with frog fucking to make them have faith that things could get better. It was a cute play and a good moral. I was raised Mormon so I found a lot of the things in the play to extremely hysterical. I really was entertained by the flamboyantly gay missionary who was telling Kevin and Arnold about the “mormon trick” of just shutting off all your confusing thoughts so that you just didn’t think about them….thoughts like being gay….just shut it off and ignore it cause that’s what mormons do…..and then another mormon chimes in about how his dad use to beat his mom when he was a kid and he used the mormon trick as well and just “shut it off” its all rather humourous and sad if you know mormons.

Any fart…..that’s my review. I thought it was really delightful, mostly cause there was toilet humor and that is always hysterical but it was cute and it’s not forcing religion down your throat but it does put a nice spin on things AND it explains a lot about what the mormon faith is which I think is nice for those ignorant people out there who think mormons are evil. I recommend this show to anyone.

someone sent me this dress probably about 4 or 5 weeks ago. I haven’t been able to really stand without my knee brace on so I’ve fallen behind on taking sexy pictures for my blogs to say thank you to people who have sent me stuff off my wishlist. I didn’t forget about you guys and I’m not an ungrateful bitch….I just didn’t really feel sexy in a brace. I’m now walking around sans brace and I am doing cardio again…yay…so here come the pix. thank you for your patience and support everyone. I feel the love and it feels so good.