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valentine’s day masacre

by admin February 14, 2011

today is valentine’s day. It’s 9:13pm California time. obviously this isn’t a very monumental evening for me if I can post at 9:13 about the weird ass day I have had. The day started out as annoying as I thought it would.

I got a text messages at about 4 am from a person I hardly know……reason 6002938 why I don’t ever hand out my phone number…I know a lot of you often think it’s harmless for me to give you my numbers….like you’re the special one I’ll give my number out too…..and you are special, I’m sure your moms’ tell you that all the time ……but from my experience…if I hand my number out…I’m bound to get weird texts from you when you drink.. I don’t know how I have this affect on people…I just do. LOL….so some random guy I think I’ve met like 2 times writes me at 4 am…..that’s still 7 am east coast time….he’s not east coast…. 4 am..Monday morning…fucking great..woke me up..couldn’t go back to sleep…then the emails come in….I have this guy is Israel who writes me love letter every so often. I am flattered but yet the things he writes.. Idon’t believe anything he says, I think I’m just a figure he likes to pretend exists..so not writing him back leaves this mystery to him to make me who ever he wants me to be…responding, I think, would ruin this fantasy he has…and this fantasy is so beautiful..so I let him have it.

I got 2 dozen red roses delivered to my home from the love of my life, my ex. this was bitter sweet to me. I love him so much and yet when he does things like this I get mind boggled…why would he do this… He’s not the type to do something unless he means it. He’s 48, the games have been played, he been there, done that..no reason to fuck with a little girl like me…and yet he knows how in love with him I am/was/no am…I try with all my might to ignore him. some days it’s easy. some days I’m so busy with work I can’t even call my mom or check in on my son….I worry about my ex’s health so I figure it’s best to keep in touch with him to make sure he’s okay and then I realize maybe I’m just making excuses. I wish he’d start dating already and just forget me. I wish he’d get married and have kids and be happy so I could be happy for him…or at least pretend to be. As far as I know he’s not dating anyone…fucking people…no doubt…but dating..I don’t know..I don’t ask and he doesn’t tell….I don’t talk to mutual friends as I don’t care to hear any gossip or drama they’d try to bring to the table. Since I do not speak with mutual friends I really don’t have a social life…..Work becomes me. I am my job. I love it and yet I hate it. my personality is “blah” lately. I have no sense of humor….I kinda act like a bitch to strangers just because I don’t have time for them….I hate who I am becoming…

To add insult to injury about this person I am becoming…I get an email from another ex…..long time since ex….now this is a long story….I dated a married man way back when…actually the man who I would say made me realize I hated men..LOL….he was bi……though I didn’t know it at the time…but I could sense it….He was such a girl during out “courtship” if you can call it that. He was such drama…think…lesbo relationship drama and then super size it and add extra cheese to it because his drama could get pretty fucking cheesy.

I can’t delve into that relationship, frankly because I no longer care about it nor can I remember half of it because I use to drink a lot LOL….Anyfart….about 2 months ago..IDK..4 months ago..who cares…dude writes me telling me he needs to speak to me after 4 years of not speaking to each other. I agree, reluctantly because I have changes so much as a person and don’t really care to know him any longer…he broke my heart and I’m just over it. But I agreed to meet with him. I though he was going to tell me he had AIDS or something terminal…just the way he spoke made it sound pretty serious. so I met up with him and all he had to say was that he was sorry for how he treated me…..nice effort but too little too late. So IDK if he was trying to rekindle some crap or what…but every so often he would write me…tell me how much I meant to him..blah blah lbah….I’m like..”um yeah, I know, I was a fucking amazing girlfriend…you’re groveling to come back to me, just like everyone else I have dated” LOL yes, I’m pretty cocky…..

Anyfart….so today he sends me some gay message saying “goodbye” Basically to say good bye to who I “use to be” I’m assuming???? I don’t know really cause his emails were so fucking weird….here’s the thing about “goodbyes” when you mean them..you don’t need to say them…when you say them it’s your stupid way of trying to get the other person to try to convince you to stay…fuck that shit, I don’t play games..OMG i should post the emails back and forth..should I but I’m too lazy to copy and past them in chronological order and black out the names for right now…..

The only saving grace for this day was finding solace in a friend, who I found out I have a lot more in common with than I do with most folks. This woman had a pretty shitty weekend and yet she called me and was more concerned for me than she was for herself…awww. I love people like that. She had a pretty mind fucked weekend herself…people play games more often than we like to think. I guess it’s good that people are so strange because for each time they are strange there is someone on the receiving end and those of us on the receiving end often find truly loving friendships when we bond with others who have suffered as we, ourselves have.

Which leads me to the conclusion that we all must have something in common. Those of you who have found my blog didn’t do so on accident. YOu may have been searching for porn and found my blog but you keep coming back because you are drawn to my honesty.. You must be an honest person. I’m sure you heart aches and you have experiences the mind fuck and utter love for someone who just doesn’t want you. We all have a lot in common…I’m a porn slut…you may be a sales man, a business woman, a fry cook, an actress, a restaurant owner, a consultant, a HR man, CEO, slave owner….I don’t care what you do…we all have something in common….We all have felt the same hurt…maybe we can all help each other heal

Happy Valentine’s day my dears.

16 comments

sailingchick1 February 15, 2011 at 5:23 pm

Heavey stuff to read. Sounds like there is still hope for ya and ur ex. Would've loved to get roses from the object of my affection. 🙁 Like I wrote in my other comment If more people were like you, there would be more smiles, more adventures, and more love in the world. The world needs more honest people like you. You make this world a better place and not just coz you are so amazingly sexy and beauriful 🙂

Mitchell Rivera February 15, 2011 at 8:09 pm

Owww being honest and expressive is good with strangers. Most people probably just kick on your blog because your naked pic got them horny and then they googled your vids and this comes up so they scroll down and start reading looking for pics/links and get distracted because you're speaking candily directly to whoever is reading. Some people feel it doesn't warrant an answer and some do so I wouldn't read too much into it everyone is different. But most people probably aren't looking to date you or get your number because they're on your blog. You shouldn't give out your number on this blog. That'd be stupid. Go get a new boyfriend if you want if you'll be fine as long as you remain honest and candid and don't turn .

Mitchell Rivera February 15, 2011 at 8:09 pm

into one of those people that believes everything every faget(no pun intended) tells them and reacts to it. That's fool hearted, and I can't see how a man could have a girl like you and bang dudes and take it in the ass. But that's just my thinking personally I could never let a girl screw me with a strap on or have sex with a dude. To me that's strange behavior how a man could let a female bitch him and all that but if it floats your ship and you don't go overboard then you go do the damn thing. Just remember to whip it and whip it hard. Whip it, whip it real hard

Mitchell Rivera February 15, 2011 at 8:11 pm

By the way you've been looking kind of skinny in all the videos but like 1-2 you need to gain like 5 to 10lbs back. Men like a woman like Kim Kardashian.

ArielX February 15, 2011 at 10:29 pm

I really don\’t give a fuck if guys like girls to look like kym kardashian. I\’m not going to change my look for a man to like me..if he doesn\’t like me as I am he doesn\’t deserve me.

I have noticed a trend in your comments on here. Seems you like to bash any relationship I\’ve had. It doesn\’t sway me from posting my honest stories..but I\’m curious why you would put down anyone that at one point meant the world to me. At one point my Bi ex meant very much to me…the fact he enjoyed men doesn\’t make him a horrible person. The reason we parted ways was because he cheated on his wife with me and he lied to me on many occassions…I could care less who else was sucking his dick as long as he was honest about it.
YOu will never grasp the concept of open relationships. YOu have commented time and time again about how you would never want to be with a girl who allowed you to fuck someone else…that\’s great…different strokes for different folks. I\’m not sure if you are aware of the fact that I film porn for a living. I am more than confident enough with myself that I am okay with my lovers to be with other lovers as long as they do it in a healthy safe way so that I am protected from the nasty things out there.
It actually breaks my heart to hear you gay bash my ex or anyone. I\’m not sure if you are also aware that I star in Lesbian movies and I have been in lesbian relationships. What double standard is there where you can bash a man for fucking another man but then not bash a woman for fucking another woman?
Also….just because people are my ex\’s doesn\’t make them horrible. They have many amazing qualities which is obviously whey I was with them. I pride myself on being a good judge of character. To have you bash anyone I have been in a relationship makes me think you do not trust my judge of character; that you must think I am stupid for chosing who I have been with.
I regret no relationship I have been in. I have grown so much from each person I have loved. I\’ve been hurt but at least I\’ve loved and lost. At least I\’ve had something so beautiful at some point in my life. I wouldn\’t trade that for the world.

ArielX Fan February 18, 2011 at 7:59 pm

maybe people wouldn't feel like the could write homophobic comments if you didn't use gay in a derogatory matter. "today he sends me some gay message " can't fault him for thinking it was ok to gay bash when you do.

ArielX February 18, 2011 at 9:59 pm

I appreciate your playing the “devil’s advocate” and bringing to light another side to the story. However, it is ridiculous that you equate my phrase “ gay ass email” to the posters comments mentioning “fagets” and a man letting a woman use a strap on on him “being Strange”.
Saying something is “gay ass” may not be politically correct but it certainly isn’t inviting people to go ahead and start bashing “gays”

I’m curious if I had used the phrase “lame email” if you would tell me I was condoning or encour people who make fun of people who can’t walk.

sailingchick1 February 20, 2011 at 7:14 pm

ArielX Fan, ur comment has me LMFAO…Ariel X gay bashing…next thinkg you'll write is that we should go surfing in Nebraska! political correctness is fine but use some common sense! Ariel X is a friend to the gay communtity!

Kiwi (Lisa) March 23, 2011 at 7:01 pm

Ok well I may be the new girl here enjoying reading Ariel's blogs, but I don't need to be here for more than a New York minute to say "Mitchell, you are a large tool". I am suddenly patting myself on the shoulder for allowing the universe to mold me into a woman who chooses to date women. Next time I get a touch of the occasional "straight shakes" that I don't follow through with, I will come back to your comment above about you telling Ariel that she should do "this" and do "that" and tell myself I'm not missing a thing. If I was bigger I would offer her people to allow me to be the email bouncer. Tool. Tool you are. T-O-O-L. (p.s.- Ariel, if u happen to see this, FYI I friggin hated how he spoke to you, but i feel better now for the way you spoke back) LOL 😉 cheers to you. – Lisa

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John Trotta February 16, 2011 at 11:59 am

Hey Ariel,

I read or try to read your postings every day. I think you are correct when you state that we are all drawn to your blog for some common reason. I don't read your entries to criticize them.
I read them and enjoy them because of your frank nature and willingness to share experiences that many of us have as well but are afraid to share the experience. One reason can be seen/read in the previous postings by someone who has a lot of commentary for you.
Including diet (lol) !!!
I on the other hand am not drawn to this site because of porn or nude pictures. I'm drawn to the site because in a world of fakes I see at least one person who's not afraid to be herself and write about it.
Like you said it doesn't matter who or what we are there's common ground in all of us.
Sooo true….
P.S.
Before anyone critisizes another for their looks, actions, heritage…you name it. I think they better be next to perfect in every way. Funny I have yet to meet the "Perfect" person grced with this position.
How bout you???
Please keep writing, I'm sure there are lot of other Ariel Fans who enjoy your blog as I do.
Take care.
John

ArielX February 17, 2011 at 2:11 pm

Thanks John, You are always very kind

Ed Taylor February 16, 2011 at 12:03 pm

Ariel . .. you are so smart and so . . .so . . . so . . normal, in so many ways. Enjoy the ride and we are enjoying watching you watching us watching you . . . happy face

pcipher February 16, 2011 at 7:22 pm

I stop in every couple of days just to hear what you have to say. Spew it out. I wanna hear it! Err… read it. BTW I recently saw you as Action Girl in that Tomiko worm clip and I must say your buns were amazing! You are in awesome shape all over!
-PC

cbb March 26, 2011 at 12:58 pm

Two weeks ago, I didn't even know you existed. Since then I've watched many of your films, your DB shoots, your wrestling, and now I've read this blog. You are absolutely right — there is something honest, even in your scripted shoots, that kept pulling me back. For the first week or so I was sure there was something wrong with me because I was so drawn to you — I was trying to get to know this fictional person who fucks on film. I was disturbed by the fact that I felt connected to this pornstar and in an attempt to stay away, I reminded myself that you were just playing a character, that you weren't real, and that I was insane to invest in what was and would always be a one sided relationship. It wasn't until I saw a clip of your match with "Chloe Camilla", someone who is very real to me and someone who I have known since we were 5 years old, that you became just a little bit more like a real person. I was wrong about you. You are very real and it's because you share yourself so fully and so honestly. There's nothing I can say to you that you haven't heard before… Hell you probably won't even see this post you are obviously so fucking pretty, but if you weren't so genuine, I would have never known I was actually attracted to you. … and fuck, I guess this means I like girls. I hope its really you that you share with us, and not just the person you want us to think you are because thus far, I really admire the person I've seen. I'm not sure if that means I aspire to be like you or I want to fuck you. Such a fucking conundrum – I doubt I'll ever know, but either way, I'm glad I stumbled onto a website with Ariel X two weeks ago and I'm glad I was interested enough to find your blog. It is posts like this that will keep me coming back.

p.s. you are an amazing athlete. I thought you just worked out a lot, but I really watched you wrestle and you've got so much more than just strength. I know how hard you must work at it… Just wanted to acknowledge the athletic talent that's there in addition to the incredibly fuckable horndog that you are.

cbb March 26, 2011 at 1:01 pm

Two weeks ago, I didn't even know you existed. Since then I've watched many of your films, your DB shoots, your wrestling, and now I've read this blog. You are absolutely right — there is something honest, even in your scripted shoots, that kept pulling me back. For the first week or so I was sure there was something wrong with me because I was so drawn to you — I was trying to get to know this fictional person who fucks on film. I was disturbed by the fact that I felt connected to this pornstar and in an attempt to stay away, I reminded myself that you were just playing a character, that you weren't real, and that I was insane to invest in what was and would always be a one sided relationship. It wasn't until I saw a clip of your match with "Chloe Camilla", someone who is very real to me and someone who I have known since we were 5 years old, that you became just a little bit more like a real person. I was wrong about you. You are very real and it's because you share yourself so fully and so honestly. There's nothing I can say to you that you haven't heard before… Hell you probably won't even see this post you are obviously so fucking pretty, but if you weren't so genuine, I would have never known I was actually attracted to you. … and fuck, I guess this means I like girls. I hope its really you that you share with us, and not just the person you want us to think you are because thus far, I really admire the person I've seen. I'm not sure if that means I aspire to be like you or I want to fuck you. Such a fucking conundrum – I doubt I'll ever know, but either way, I'm glad I stumbled onto a website with Ariel X two weeks ago and I'm glad I was interested enough to find your blog. It is posts like this that will keep me coming back.

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