Sexual Orientation

I have widgets and software that help me keep track of things on my website. Things like keyword searches that lead people to my site, phrases people search to find my site…blah blah blah….any fart….I notice a lot of people are looking up to search a few things. The #1 search for me is people looking for a scene where I’m getting banged by a dude….it doesn’t exist…sorry. The closest thing to a bg scene I’ve done is laughing at penises in a video or Matt Williams or Orlando finger blasting me for a kink.com site :). YOu’d think that’d be enough for people. I mean porn is porn right….wrong. I’m an outcast no matter which way I look at it. The porn world doesn’t think I’m porny enough since I don’t bang guys and the mainstream world certainly doesn’t accept the porn I do, I guess most people don’t like seeing a girl be tied up and electricuted until she cums ( what’s wrong with people), so I’m just an awkward person I guess and I’m rather content about it. I wouldn’t want to be a member of any “cool people club” that would actually have me as a member anyway 🙂

The second most looked up for “ariel x” is people asking if I’m gay or straight…cause it’ has to be one or the other right, there is no in between. In my days on this earth I have learned one thing about people when it comes to their quest to seek out what someone’s sexual orientation is. People only want to know someone’s sexual orientation for one of two reasons. The first reason is because they want to know if they have a chance to date this person. They wanna know if the person in question has tendencies that may or may not give the inquirer a chance. The second reason people are so nosey about what someone else’s sexual preference is, is so they can tease, talk shit, bully, or point out hypocrisies of that person. I will address both intentions respectively and I’m sorry there is no “NICE” way to put my answer and there is no way to tap dance around it without sounding like a total cunt so I just can’t WAIT to hear what some of you have to say about my response.

I have had sex with boys….not a lot of them but I have had sex with some, 6 to be exact. I’m 32 and I’ve had sex with 6 guys. I’ve had sex with countless women. I have dated only a handful of people. When i say date, I mean long term, not just once or twice out to dinner and then we bang it out. I’ve “banged” many women but that I wouldn’t say I “dated”. I have gone on dates with many guys and girls but I wouldn’t say I”ve dated them. maybe I’m playing with words or maybe I just don’t understand the world wide accepted terms that you kids use today but in my book there is a difference between going on a date and actually dating someone. There is a difference between seeing someone and dating someone. Seeing someone is defined as ( by me) going out on dates maybe having sex but not in a monogamous or serious relationship. Dating someone is defined as ( by me) only going out on dates with that person for a long period of time with only interest in that one person. So now that I have defined those terms for you, I feel I can continue with the explanation of what I am.

I have been in relationships with men and with women. I have been in MORE relationship with women but my relationships with men have lasted longer. Just because I have dated men and women does NOT mean I have interest in every single man and/or woman who asks me out. To be honest, at this point in my life I have NO interest to be in a relationship with anyone. I do not actively seek out men or women right now. So if you’re a woman reading this and you got your hopes up because now you know I’m into woman and potentially could date you, don’t get all excited….same if you’re a guy reading this and now you know I have taken a dick….not so fast there kiddos. Just because someone has been with a guy or a girl doesn’t mean that every single dude or every single chick will be that person’s type. To be safe I would say, just don’t bother hitting on me at all. I’m a pretty forward and aggressive woman who gets what she wants. If i’m into someone I definitely make the first move. I flirt a little, then i see how people react, If they flirt back I pounce on them like a wild ape baby and I have my way with them. it’s as simple as that. You can ask any guy I’ve been with, I’ve pretty much raped them. Every man I’ve been with I’ve known I wanted to bang within 10 seconds of meeting and speaking with them….literally 10 seconds. same with the women I’ve actually been with outside of what I do in the industry. When I have chemistry with people, I get extremely aggressive and forward. So….if you’re writing me and it’s been several correspondences back and forth and I haven’t hinted at all that I am interested in you, chances are I am NOT into you. No offense, it’s not you it’s ME.

Now to those who have been dying to hear my answer just so you can talk your shit or ask really stupid questions like “why I don’t do guys on camera then if you do it in real life?” ….I think i answered that question already. I haven’t met too many guy’s I have truly been interested in so why would I bang some random guy just to make a few extra bucks for a porno. The reality is, in the porn world, to make any really good money I’d have to be banging a guy every day….lets say it’s a new guy every day that’ 365 guys in one year….I probably meet only 365 new guys every year, at my gym, at a restaurant, getting coffee…that’d be like having sex with 100% of the guys I meet….which just doesn’t happen. I have meet probably 10,000 men over the course of the 8 years I’ve done porn ( meeting them at conventions, airports, bars….anywhere where there are tons of people) let’s say I’ve actually encountered 10000 guys, this is just an estimate. 10000 guys and I”ve only had the desire to bang 6 of them. I meet beautiful men every day I don’t go off looks right away. There are guys who look like gods at my gym but then they open their mouths and say something totally lame and I lose all interest, they blew the first 10 seconds. I need more than a nice body on a guy. I need personality, I need a guy with manners but most of all I need a guy I want to kiss and smooch and snuggle with all night. I can’t explain what makes me want to smooch on guy, it’s just chemistry and I simply do not get that with most guys or pretty much ever. I get that feeling with woman all the time. I can meet a woman and within seconds of knowing her, she’s the one i want to kiss an smooch  and snuggle with. So I say I don’t like guys and for all those just waiting to pounce on me and call out how I’m a hypocrite cause I dated a guy or I’m dating a guy or I’ve dated guys in the past, yes it happens once in blue moon I fall for a guy.

When I’m with a person doesn’t matter if it’s a man or a woman, if I’m with that person I only have eyes for that person. I try to date people who are okay with open relationships so that they can accept what I do for work and not feel hurt when I sleep with other women. For me it’s been hard to find women who are okay with my sleeping with other women, they’d rather I be with men on film. And women tend to do a bait and switch. When I start dating them they try to tell me how “cool” they are with what I do, how they’ll “never ask me to change”. blah blah blah then suddenly I’m hurting them every time I go to work.   It’s been a heck of a lot easier to date guys who accept that I sleep with just women on film. Guys don’t feel threatened that I sleep with women on film the way the women I”ve dated feel threatened by it.

So where does that leave me now. I’m single, I’ve gone on a date here and there, and yes even with a guy. I am completely happy being a lone for the moment. I do wish I had someone to go home to after a long day at work. I have an 11 year old son who keeps me busy, productive and positive and certainly keeps me from feeling alone. My son also leaves a lot to do sleep over with friends or see his dad and when he’s gone I get super lonely. I do want someone to call my own. I’d love to have a husband or wife but I’m in no hurry for it either. So I focus on work, my kid and training. Hobbies and friends keep me busy and positive. I love my life and even though there are moments where I stop and say ” I wish I had someone to share this moment with” I’d rather be alone than settle for someone who’s a monster.