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I’m sorry I haven’t been blogging much. I have been swamped with work, which I can not complain about. Historically, December is always a very slow month for me but this year it’s been truly busy. On top of working non stop for wrestling and cam site, I have been pretty busy doing motherly duties. My son is having a hell of a time at school….we are getting through it. Thank you to all of you who have written and expressed concern and given advice.  🙂

So it’s Holiday season…we had Hannuka earlier in the month now it’s time for Xmas and Kwanza!!! then New Years. I don’t have too many new years resolutions..i try to keep goals on a daily basis. I guess if there is one thing I would love to work on in 2011 it would be to learn to love like I’ve never been hurt before. I’m finding it very difficult to get close to anyone, friends or potential suitors. I really have no interest in any type of romantic relationship at this point in time but even when a man or woman is trying to just be nice, I back peddle and run away from them. I don’t want to invest any time into anyone right now, in fear of rejection or being hurt again..so 2011 will be the year I try to make friends……and not run away from people who are trying to be kind….but of course…stalkers and weirdos I will be guarded with as always..but they are easy to spot.

What are the tell tale signs of a stalker/weirdo?  here’s my list( bare in mind that we all do some of these sometimes and doing it once or twice doesn’t make any of us weird…its when it happens multiple times in a day when it becomes a problem.)

– Someone who writes me 30 times a day to tell me each and everything he/she does…ie ” just got done shopping”…next email ” just went to the store and came back early to see if maybe you emailed me..”

-in that same respect..someone who sends very short emails almost as if it were a text i.e. : “what are you doing? ” ….next email ” haven’t heard from you are you alright?” …next text ” you’re an asshole for not writing back”….these continue all day just each on meaner and shorter than the last.

– Someone who has to constantly tell me how much they consider me a good friend ( now some of you are my good friends…but you guys and gals don’t write me every 10 minutes telling me what good friends we are)

– someone who write in ALL CAPS IN ALL THE EMAILS THE SEND ME

– someone who write me from multiple email accounts because they “get bored with the old email account” I still can’t understand this train of though…

– Someone who insists we meet up becuase they just think I’m cool and then writes me all types of crap about how bad they want to fuck me.

So just so you know…..You would know these are talking about you because I would have written you to tell you you’re weird and ask that you never write me again…by all means I do not want to disuade any of my awesome friends from writting me…you are never a bother…if you become a bother, I am very vocal..I don’t hold anything back, trust me..thus why I am single LOL.

So at any rate. this blog is about the Holidays not about people annoying me. I don’t have any big holidays plans. I will be spending the holidays with my family. I have a new Niece who is celebrating her first Christmas..It was so fun shopping for a little girl!!!

I have been tending to a sick child so my free time has been pretty mellow…oh oh..I did have a booty call the other day….it was pretty freakn’ great….I wish I could have stayed longer alas, my lover had to work and wanted to sleep and I would have been trying to fuck all night and that wouldn’t have been good for the sap who needs to sleep!!

I do have a few days off for the holidays and then it’s back to work …bah…which brings me to my next resolution for 2011…try to work smarter not harder.

One of these days I will have minions who do dirty work for me LOL…maybe you guys can spread the word about this blog to help the sales of my affiliate programs hint hint….eh hmmm….

And that’s about it for now….I’ve made some pretty awesome friends this year…so thank you all for being there for me and sharing your lives….my lil “lilf”, Sue, Sam, Kelly, Nat……Aaron, Bob, Bill, Stew, Barry, George…I love you all…I truly I do!!! I’m sorry I can’t get back to ya all as much as you deserve. Happy holidays to all of you Darlings whether I name dropped you or not 🙂

It’s Thanksgiving and I have ever so much to be thankful for. One of the most important things I am thankful for is the blessing I have being able to wrestle women naked. Wrestling women naked has changed my life for the better because it has raised myself esteem, it has forced me to get into and stay in great shape and it gets me out of the house doing something I’m proud to be doing. Hows that for an opening statement, language arts teacher? LOL

It’s true. Wrestling has raised my self esteem in many ways. I can’t say I ever had low self esteem. I feel I’m pretty realistic in my view of myself. The world is a big place and before I started wrestling, I often felt as if I was an average bear. I always thought I was cute…I guess I know the rules of being some-one’s “types”. Everyone has a type of look they like and when a girl has what they like…she has “it’” when she doesn’t she “doesn’t” it’s as simple as that. I often felt as if I had a look that the average person would like which made me feel a little average. I had been modeling and doing fetish work for years before I found wrestling. Sure I got emails from gentlemen, complimenting me on me work and my style and sure it was great. When I started wrestling…win or loose, I would get so many emails from gentlemen who looked that fact that I was doing something active and yes it was nice that they thought I was cute. The number of compliments helped raise my self esteem….which in turned forced me to want to do better which I did, which in turn got me more compliments. Suddenly I found myself spiralling into a happy spot of feeling confident in my looks and confident enough in my skill so that if someone didn’t like the way I looked..I could beat a different opinion into them and they would end up liking me LOL.

The work outs I put myself through, day in and day out, are grueling. Some days I don’t want to work out but I force myself to do it because I can’t quit. Each day I train I tell myself ” you may not want to do this but you have to because if you give up on this work out you will train yourself to give up on the mats and tap when you don’t need to”. My mental game is strong and I need a physical game to match it. I train all body parts accordingly. I do my back and biceps, I do my shoulders, I do my chest and triceps and I do my legs each on a separate day so I can go max weight on each muscle group, with out fatiguing the other groups and inadvertantly ”over training”. Of course I take breaks from the gym and my diet. I take a day off at the gym every 4 days and every Sunday I pig out on the most delicious junk food the world can give me. Because I train so hard, my body has become a solid brick house. I am sometimes unmovable on the mats but I have also developed curves in all the right places and at the ripe age of 30, I must admit, I think I look better now than I did in my 20’s hands down!! I am confident when I walk into my gym and I’m confident when someone brings me brownies that I would eat them until Sunday. My mental game is strong for both my workout and my diet. It has to be strong in order to keep a good feminine balance.

With the new found, mental and physical strength, I walk around with a lot of confidence and of course I am proud of what I have accomplished with my body form. I am proud of what I have accomplished in my life. I love opening my emails from you guys and seeing that you just saw my most recent match released. I love when you ask me questions, even though sometimes I take a while getting back to you, I try to always get back to each and every one of you. I am proud of winning any match I have won but most importantly I am proud to have lost any match I have lost because that is where the growth comes from. I am proud to be a part of something like naked women’s wrestling, a sport that a lot of women turn their noses at. I am proud that I bare my body, skills, strengths and weaknesses to all of you on the mats. I show no shame as I have none. I am proud when I dominate my opponents wrestling and even more proud when I dominate them sexually. I love what I do and I am thankful I got into the sport.

So tomorrow when we are eating our stuffed birds, you should know that I will be saying thanks to all of YOU who make it possible for us to do what we do. YOu put food on my plate, you keep my body in shape and you give me girls virginities to take!!! Bless all of you!!!!!!!! muah..

I’m sorry to have been absent for so long from my blog. Work has picked up like crazy for me…not just the adult work…I’m talking my mainstream jobs as well. I do affiliate marketing and I’ve been spending many hours posting ads and making money for the holiday season. I love keeping busy. I’ve also been getting a lot of sessions with gentlemen from other countries who are here on holiday. I’m having a blast kicking foreign ass!!

Well of course I will post more about my work adventures but also have something else to share. I wanted to share this video on youtube of this Father going on his daughter’s bus to confront the daughter’s bully. Some of you may or may not be aware that I have a 9 year old little boy..he will be 10 this January. He’s different. He is really smart…too smart for his own good..he’s skinny and a little akward. He gets bullied every day of his life at school. The bulling has only recently been brought to my attention. My son felt like he was tattling if he told on the kids who hit, punched, kicked, spit and name called him…His school would ignore the issue until a few months ago my son was forced to go to a hospital for  a week because due to the bullying. I have spent many a days for the past 4 months in pta meetings, psyche meetings, IEP meetings…I have a meeting at least 3 times a week..it’s been my life…it’s been hard to work or function but it’s not impossible…redbull and hot chicks in fitness mags keep me going . 

I swear to god I can not tell nyou how much I fantasize having a cat fight with the mother and/or father of the child(ren) who are causing my son his grief…there is nothing worse than hearing your child say he hates school so much that he wishes he could just die.

In this video the Dad is so upset after hearing about his daughter’s problems at school and having the school ignore the issues, he takes matters into his own hands. This guy stood up for his daughter but later was arrested.

It’s very frustrating, as a parent, to want to be able to help but know that if you act on your emotions then you may end up in jail. I really don’t see anything wrong with what this man did..maybe the cursing in front of kids was a little much…but I’m sure they see and hear worse when in their own homes when their disfunctional parents are fighting…yes that’s right. I feel all bullies come from disfunctional homes.

Say what you want about my career choice, what I do or who I do..but if you ever came into my home you’d see that there is so much love and respect in the home. My child’s problems are not in our home…they are caused by these jerky kids with jerky parents who pick on this little boy of mine.

I am investigating what my rights are as a parent so I can take care of this issue in a legal manner…..perhaps I will challenge the mom and dad to a duel…I”ll see if Jason Miller can set that up :).

anyway..that’s the crap I’ve been dealing with…more positive stuff will be posted in the future, I promise

So I got a new BlackBerry storm. Its one of those touch screen phones. Its hard to text on but has some good features. But I’m not here to blog about the stupid phone; I’m here to blog about how I can blog from the stupid phone. That’s right. I can blog from pretty much anywhere. So get ready to hear all about everything….even the stuff ud rather not hear about….like turds and boogies hhaH no no I won’t go there. So the blogs will be more frequent but less pertinent and have even less proper gramer if you can believe it. When I am able to get to my computer I will have longer , more exciting blogs with pix and vids.
I just want to thank yall for sticking around and sending ur love. Get ready to be bombarded with crazy blogs
Xoxo

I went to see Machete this Friday. I’m not going to bother getting into the plot or story line…that part isn’t really noteworthy to be honest. The action was amazing and the girls where hot!! need I say more. Machete is the most entertaining movie I have seen in a very long time. I have alway been a fan of Robert Rodriguez’s work. I think he is a brilliant film maker. I even enjoy the god damn “Spy Kid’s” and “Shark boy and Lava Girl” movies he makes…so sue me..sheesh….but Machete is GOLD!!! It’s got blood, guts, murder, porn stars, drug dealers, druggies, Steven Segal…the list goes on and on. It’s a dark comedy for sure. There are things you should NOT be laughing at but you find yourself cracking up over. For example; Machete is taken to a hospital for illegal aliens, meanwhile some thugs are looking for him to kill him after framing him for a botched assassination. Machete is in the hospital room with a doctor and two smoking hot nurses. The Doctors makes a comment about the human intestines being about 60 feet long. Shortly after the comment is made, Machete is informed that the thugs are looking for him so he tries to hightail it out of the hospital room. With no where to run, he confronts the thugs. He cuts up their faces and limbs and even slices one guy in the guts….pulls his guts out (which we now know after the doctor’s speech that they are at least 60 ft long)and he jumps out the window and rappels down the side of the building  which is about 60 ft high using the mans guts…fucking AMAZING!!! the action doesn’t stop there either. It’s literally non stop action and or comedy.

If what I mentioned above isn’t enough to persuade you to go see this movie, perhaps a glimps of Jessica Alba’s side boob and ass is. That’s right..she’s naked in the movie but you only get to see side boob…good enough for me. And Michelle Rodriguez is pretty outstanding in this flic as well. She’s a natural born bad ass. She only goes in her bra in this one..no side boob or implied nudity for this girl but she straps some guns on and fucks people up good int his movie!!!

Definitely the most entertaining movie of the year if not of the decade!!!

I have gotten a great deal of supportive emails and comments about my last blog. Thank you EVERYONE who has sent their love and support. I am currently busting my balls to get myself into a position where I can make residual income for the rest of my life and not be stressed out should I get injured and unable to perform. Having to take time off and cancel jobs after my injury and my son’s hospitalization kinda effed me financially and opend my eye to the fact that if anything happend to my physcially and I couldnt work for a year..I’d be S.O.L.

  I have several affiliate programs in the works right now and I will have some more set up soon. I will be writing a fitness blog and will have several links to cheap vitamins and crap. The idea is to advertise to you fans and if you like something you see, you can buy it..this way you get something you want and I get a little part of each sale I generate through my blogs.

My latest obsession is Credit Card Processing Affiliate programs. I have signed up with Authorize.net as an affiliate. They are THE best gateway for credit card processing. If you own your own business and/or you have the decision making power and say so on who you want to process through, please take me and Authorize.net into consideration. You need to accept credit cards in this day and age so why not help a gal like me out in the process. I will be getting a site up www.processingportal.com soon but if you would like information now please go ahead and sign up using my affiliate link

https://ems.authorize.net/OAP/HOME.ASPX?SALESREPID=98&RESELLERID=17458

You will be asked to create a user name and password and then more details about your company and how much business you plan to do each month. The customer service reps at Authorize.net will be able to assist you with what ever questions or concerns you have. I’m just a referral guy but I do make a small percentage of each transaction once you sign up using my affiliate link. You have to signup using my link in order for them to recognize my referral.

I would never ask any of you to send me money or anything like that but if you could take the time to look into the services I promote and see if they are useful to you, I would greatly appreciate it. Who knows, maybe you can save some money in the process.

Thank you for your time. folks. Thank you for the support and everything Feel free to spread the word and link I provided to anyone you think would find it useful. Thank you. I have read each and every email and comment and you have all filled me with joy. This world and the people in it are truly amazing!!!!

xoxox

So it’s been a while since I had a personal update on this blog. I’ve had a lot going on lately to say the least. I don’t know where to start other than by saying, I need to get some shit of my chest and I want to be heard. I don’t know what I want, empathy, sympathy…I don’t know, I just want to be heard and have my story told, like “The Ring” So you will have to copy my story or you will die in 7 days..hahah JK….please don’t share this with anyone…if they are real fans or friends they will read this on their own. This is for real supporter’s eyes only!!!

Let me start back about 5 months ago. My guy and I have been together about 3 years. We have had some rocky times but who doesn’t. I thought we were destined to be together so I put up with a lot of shit…and believe me, he put up with a lot of shit as well. Regardless of what your rules and boundaries are in your relationship, it is hard for a man to date a woman in the adult industry. We had an open relationship. He didnt’ care if I fucked women and I didn’t ‘care if he did either…but I had rules. I needed to have the woman acknowledge my existence and say hi and be nice ( there is no way in hell I’d let him fuck a girl who was rude to me) and he had to be safe and have fun. I wont go into details but I just want to express that our relationship was flawless for the first year and then he push and tried my boundaries and rules…over and over….5 months ago he did something that betrayed me beyond anything I could imagine. I supposed I should let y’all know that he was the first man I had been with in  avery very long time. I dont trust men to begin with. This man I fell for was something special. He was beautiful, inside and out and he told me everything and made me feel like a queen for the first year or so. I made a giant leap by allowing myself to trust him. I gave myself to him wholy. He did break my heart in and turn, rather than saying goodbye, I allowed myself to turn into a bitch and nag him and criticize him in all he did. We went on a break 5 months ago. Since then we have been off and on again..nothing new….we were always off and on…this time was a little more serious than the others though. When I go through a break up, I do not try to sleep around and fuck myself numb. I do the exact opposite. I hide away from all sexual things as I don’t want to share myself with anyone. I didn’t do a lot of  erotic work while we were on this break…that was my choice..I just didn’t feel right. The one thing I could manage to do for work was my wrestling work. It kept me sane and kept me on my toes. I love wrestling more than any THING in this world. My love life has NEVER interfered with my wrestling.

About 3 weeks ago, I busted my hand and wrist in a wreslting match…I was scared I would have to forfeit the summer vengeance tournament and cancel some other jobs. I broke a finger, sprained2 others fingers and sprained my wrist and told people I only sprained the wrist and finger so that I could still compete…This was not a big deal as I did heal…I am still in recover but I have full range of motion and no deformities. I have been wrestling and working out just fine but that was some added stress.

 Relationship issues don’t fuck up my mental game…but when you mess with my son, that’s when things start to break me down.  About 2 weeks ago, my son was admitted into the hospital. He was wisked away in an ambulance after I sat holding him at his school for 9 hours. He was gone for 6 days. I did not know if I would ever see him again. I learned that he will have a serious problem for the rest of his life and that in and of itself has thrown me into a deep and dark depression. He has been out for a week and a half and seems fine on the surface. I am so happy he is home..over joyed…but depression lingers. My mind is gone…it’s in la la land. I am there but I am not. I can’t focus. I can’t eat..nothing makes me smile. I burst into tears for apparently no reason. I am tired all the time and can’t sleep. I am easily irritated and quick to bit people’s heads off. things that use to bring me joy simply do not bring me joy any more.

I lost to Vendetta last week for the summer vengeance tournament. That fucked me in the head even more. It was a fight I shouldn’t have taken. I probably should have just withdrawn from the tournament but I didn’t want to be that much of a recluse. I new I had to work and still function. On the mats with her I was slow, sluggish and weak. She definitely was one step ahead of me at all times. There was absolutely nothing I could have done to prepare for that mentally. Physically I did my routine. I did heavy weights for 8 weeks before the match and then the last 2 weeks I lighten my load. I carbed up the day before. I boosted my cardio..I was in GREAT shape physically but mentally, i was a train wreck. I do not wish to take away from Vendetta’s amazing performance. She probably would have kicked my ass anyway but at least it would have been much closer. At least I wouldn’t be coming down on myself so hard for losing.

Things are getting better day by day. My son seems to be recovering well and I am slowly but surely able to go out and have “me time”..I am able to go to the gym and get my workouts done where as before I could go to the gym but I couldn’t even think about lifting weights. I would do one set and then say ” fuck it, go home”. I have been going to the beach a lot. The sun and sand and sound of the waves has been helping me relax. I have even stepped into a BJJ gym once or twice to grapple with some babes for fun. That alone has been a life saver. I go for 3 mile walks every day and that helps me look at the beauty in the world and think more positively. I spend some good nights with my son after he gets out of school and we just watch movies and each icecream which has been one of the most fun I’ve had in a long long time. Things are getting better. I am getting through all this

So…that’s my life in a nutshell right now. and for those of you who have been clicking the links on my blog and buying stuff….thank you thank you thank you…every sale I make through this blog gets me a penny or two and those pennies add up..so please keep buying and please help put food on my table and pay the crazy medical bills I have racked up…yes I have insurance but I have copays and all that jazz…it adds up!!

I love you guy…I couldn’t have gotten through this with out all you lovelies!!!

I love my triangle girls!!!!! they just forwarded me this interview I did on May 11th. It is THE MOST RECENT INTERVIEW OF ME. enjoy!!!

It’s that time again. Robin is having another Tournament and I have been honored by being asked to participate.

Please contact Robin if you are interested in any of the following matches that she has planned and consider sponsoring (basically a prepay for the match or matches you are interested in, with the photos of the matches and dvds of your choice from my catalogue for each sponsor)…You can go to her website very soon to see the SPONSORSHIP PAGE! So far the matches we have lined up are the following:

Helen Von Mott vs Dominique Danger (30 minutes…15 minutes in judo gi and 15 minutes in no gi)
Ziggy vs Helen (15 minutes)
Afrika vs Dominique Danger (20 minutes)
Robin vs Ziggy (20 minutes)
Ariel X vs Ziggy (20 minutes)
Ariel X vs Kristy Etzold (20 minutes)
Dominique Danger vs Kristy Etzold (20 minutes)

She may also add Kasie Cavanaugh v Dominique Danger if Kasie is available.

This is not a Live Event…there will be no live audience. This is a mini tournament featuring Dominique Danger and Ziggy who are flying in from Florida. If we get enough sponsors, then she may try to put on a couple more matches, time permitting. Anyone sponsoring all of the matches for $300 is welcome to come and watch the tournament at Kristy Etzold’s ring in Tustin, CA (about 45 minutes from LA), and to join Robin and any of the available wrestlers for dinner after…* hey I might stay for dinner as well, Lord knows I like to eat***

Please email Robin at fightbabe@gmail.com for more information and thank you in advance for your generosity and making this mini tournament happen!!!