I was born in and\u00a0 raised in glorious California. I grew up with\u00a0 5 brothers and 2 sisters\u2026yes, that makes 8 children, all from the same mother and father and yes, we were ( key word, \u201cwere\u201d) Mormon.<\/p>\n
I was a great student in school but I wasn\u2019t very popular. I grew up very poor and I really couldn’t relate to kids who had access to cool toys and television. I was out of touch with pop culture growing but because we were too poor to have a TV and most of the toys I got were hand-me-downs. Because I already felt like a misfit,\u00a0 \u00a0I developed a morbid sense of humor. In school I was outcasted as a freak\u2026people mistook me to be a \u201cgothic personality\u201d.\u00a0 I used to make dead baby jokes, abortion jokes, serial killer jokes, Jesus jokes ( okay okay I said \u201cused to\u201d but I still do\u201d). Let\u2019s just say people didn\u2019t appreciate my sense of humor or my love for Batman.<\/p>\n
I was lucky enough to have gotten grants for my college days. I ran cross country and studied business marketing and eventually got my AA. I stopped going to school because I found that it really got in the way of my education. Books were not teaching me what I needed to learn from experience. My education in marketing from 2000-2003 is obsolete now anyway. All my current marketing skills are self-taught or stuff I picked up from youtube videos ( god bless the internet)<\/p>\n
In 2003 I started flashing my shit for cash. I started my career in \u201cmodeling\u201d because I have a huge need to feel adored. I have come to terms with my need for attention. I understand that Pornstars sometimes get negative attention but the type of people who can’t accept me and what I do aren’t the type of people I want in my life anyway. \u00a0I actually thought staring in adult movies would be a fast flight to fame and fortune with as little work as possible but that wasn\u2019t the case. I figured I would do \u201cfetish modeling\u201d because it seemed I was already \u201ctype cast\u201d that way for having fair skin, black hair and, god forbid, small natural breasts. I found that most glamour photographers wanted nothing to do with me.\u00a0 My \u201ccareer\u201d didn\u2019t really pick up for me until early 2006 when I got an agent, Exotic Star Models, who started to book me work with some of the biggest names in the industry; companies like Playboy, Hustler, Red Light District, ect.\u00a0 I\u00a0 moved on to working LaDirect Models for about a year. I never experienced anything negative with that company, although if you were to google them today, you would find several other models who have horror stories about them. I never worked with Penises so I think that saved me a lot of grief with agents and their drama about wanting to fuck the models they represent. It probably prevented me from getting more jobs but that’s the way the cookie crumbles.<\/p>\n
I started working out, training in Martial arts, and doing a lot of self-growth. Doing BDSM was a really interesting way for me to challenge my mind and body which helped create really cool brain pathways that turned me into a machine that loves the feedback loop.<\/p>\n
I’m one of the few girls who started off doing g\/g and remains doing only g\/g after being in the biz since 2003. I’m pretty happy that I have been successful enough to do what I do and get by in life \ud83d\ude42<\/p>\n