Candid
I’m going to post a candid blog along with random candid pictures. I’ve been neglectful with my blog. I try to get down to business on here and I get forgetful that sometime people do want substance rather than just a plug to what ever new project I’m working on. So here goes.
I’ve been really busythis year. I’ve worked pretty much every day in 2012. I am either working for someone else doing wrestling or bondage or I’m doing webcam shows or sessions or something that keeps me busy. This couldn’t come at a better time in my life. I need to stay busy. If you’ve followed my blog in the past, you’d know that I’ve had a rollercoaster ride of a love life the last 5 years. The love of my life and I split up officially 2 years ago but have been on and off for the last 2 years. This was both good and bad as it kept me grounded and focused on work but also did a number on my psyche. I liked having someone convenient that I knew sexually. I liked having intimate sex with my ex. I don’t know what happened but one day I woke up and I was just sick of booty calls with him. I went a little nuts on him ( total under statement of the year) and I told him I banged someone I didn’t just to make him jealous I guess…and well..we don’t talk anymore. C’est la vie but I can’t help but feel like this huge burden is off my shoulders. I feel like I can breath. I felt like I was under a spell being with that dude. I was doing some heavy meditation, really looking for answers. If you’re a religious person you could equate it to “praying” for guidance. I prayed and I got an answer. I was just sick of my romantic situation with this person and I totally sabotaged it but I couldn’t be more happy with the result. My ex doesn’t call or accept my calls . I burned a bridge that needed to be burnt long ago and now both of us can move on. So dysfunctional. This is hard for me to write out and admit what a dumb ass I can be LOL.
moving forward. I have had nothing but great luck in my life the last month or so. I’ve have met some amazing people through out my career. Some of you are reading this now. I am so lucky to have friends and followers who are so supportive of what I do. Most of the trolls stay away from my blog and social networks. I get a handful of people chiming in with really negative or rude things but for the most part everyone is really great to me. I love my job and I love everyone i’ve encountered. I have really good people in my life.
So what have I been up to? I’ve been shooting a lot of Kink.com and their various sites. I love them. I think they are an amazing company and they treat me very well so I couldn’t complain about a thing even if I tried…well..maybe they could help me find my missing sock that I left there..but other than that.. LOL…if that’s the worst thing I have to deal with, I’m in pretty good shape.
I did a shoot for 1000 ways to die a while back. Nichole Oring and I beat up some dude who was drinking our friend’s breast milk and he died because our friend ate peanuts and he was allergic….really funny stuff…keep an eye out for that episode on spiketv. I am in the March edition of Penthouse Letters with Veronica Ricci. I will be in Hustler Taboo soon ( stay tuned for details). hmm what else. I’ve been wrestling every day pretty much. I train at my gym 5 days a week and then do video shoots so, in one way or another, I am getting wrestling in every day of my life. I’m in the best physical shape I have ever been in my life. I have new friends in the fitness and competitive sports industry who are really helping me dial in my workouts and nutrition. I have positive people I talk to on a daily basis who keep me motiviate to keep striving to be the best I can be. Every thing I do I see ways to do better and i love it. I wish I could have been like then when i was 15 and started at a younger age. My body is a vessle that can’t keep up with my mental strength and determination. I know it sound silly but bondage has really helped me push myself to limits I could only dream of. Bondage and wrestling have helped me realize what a powerful person I really can be.
That’s about my 2012 so far in a nut shell. nothing but good things. I’m so blessed. I love my life and I love everyone in it, even when people are crazy on me, I love them. I love that I encounter so many people of so many different walks of life and I have so much in common with the people who admire my work. I always find it amusing when I get people who are big fans of my fights and then they find out I do porn and they are shocked yet still very respectful and admire the hard work and dedication I put in to my training and recognize that there are more dimensions to a person who does porn. I love that all my fans see that. I appreciate you. I can’t put to words how lucky I am to have so many supportive people. thank you thank you thank you.
So here are some total random candids. just to stay with the theme of the blog “candid” this is my life….Thank you for being a part of it.
xoxox
Ariel