So I finished packing up all of my ex’s memorabilia today. The last few weeks have been hell. I’ve been going nuts sending him nasty texts to try to get through to him and convey exactly how bad he mentally fucked me and then I realized it’s not worth it. It’s not worth putting all this negative energy into someone who never gave a damn to begin with. I got a few chuckles out of the old cards he had given me. I do have to admit…going through some of the old pictures was hard…that guy did have a banging body. 
it’s always the hot ones who are the heart breakers
Things with my son have been okay for a while. He’s been out of the Hospital for about 3 weeks and no incidents yet…I’m keeping my fingers crossed. I have a bit of luck recently with work. Some companies I use to do a lot of work for randomly called me up want to book me for a ton of work coming up which will help with the medical bills and premiums from now on 
hip hip hooray!!! I have some exciting business ventures that are promising. One is a Cam site…stay tuned on that one folks!~!!!!
So…I’m getting through it…I’m smiling and able to enjoy the smaller things in life…stuff like sun sets and the meow of kittens and the laughter of children playing at water parks…Oh i’m so glad I got that season’s pass to Hurrican Harbor…the sun this summer has been a god send.
Thank you to all of you amazing friends who sent your love and concerns to me and my family. The universe has heard your prayers and looks like Ari is going to land on her feet!!! I busted my ass hard the last few weeks to keep from stressing. I damn near killed myself with endless nights of working on video editing and crap and all day filming…oh it’s good to see the work pay off. I’m sorry if I haven’t gotten back to some of you personally on some of the nice stuff you wrote me…but know that I read each and every message and was very touched. I’m still building my empire so please keep checking back for the updates on products and services, free porn and stories with happy endings.
So where does this all leave me….I get people all the time asking me “what are you , are you gay, bi”…ugh…I dont know..I loved one man..I’m sure it could happen again…so confusing…gosh I can only imagine how those bi guys feel…like they like women but I’m sure they’d turn gay for the right man….that’s how I feel…except I’m a girl…I love women but I’d turn straight for the right one…looks like I turned straight for the wrong one too. hahha well..these blogs will get interesting as I explore what the fuck I am. I’m a beautiful monster with a lust for vagina and a good soul and maybe a little hair pulling and choking in there somewhere too
Good night and good luck everyone…may we all discover more about ourselves tomorrow …stay tuned…same bat time, same bat channel.
It is good that you are getting on with your life. May good fortune be your constant companion.
Glad to hear your kid is doing better, thats the most important thing of all. Secondly, boyfriends who turn out to be assholes are a dime a dozen and the only thing to do about them is to leave them behind you as far and fast as possible. Dont give him any more of your time or energy, just be done with him. Thats it for advice
I´m sure you´ll pull thru, stronger and meaner than ever 
Not that he deserves my defending him…but he wasn\’t a total asshole. He\’s a very good guy and will make someone a wonderful husband some day. He is handsome, sucessful, a loving dog owner and did do a lot of wonderful things for me..he took me all over the globe and introduced me to many amazing friends. He\’s just can\’t be fantastic for me. I expect too much
see…I\’m getting better..no more negativity, life\’s too short to spend only talking about the bad stuff.
Ari,
I check your blog daily and I must admit that I find solace in reading your entries.
It's hard enough to go through relationships while managing parenthood and a career yet still be able to maintain a web sit were you can share your experiences.
You have such bearing…it's inspirational. It teaches that we all have to be ourselves.
Career, sexual preference…"whatever" just be yourself and be happy.
The rest does truly seem to fall in place whether by a higher power or just your course in life.
Ari,
Your proof that we need to be true ourselves regrdless of career , sexual preference and "whatever else" others would have us become.
I find solace in your writings…thanks for sharing your experiences.
Never change…
AWw thanks John,
your comment means a lot to me
Dear Ariel,
It's me your buddy bill31770. I wanted to tell you how glad I am that thinks are getting better for you I'm sorry I haven't sent you a card yet. Things have been kinda bad for me, my dad has been back and forth in the hospital for the last two months so things have been stressful.
I did get to talk to your buddy dia on the phone and she is as wonderful as you are. Speaking of which I left this message for both of you at the NW forum. I thought I would post it here for you in case you missed it.
Take Care, Ariel
Bill
ariel, just wanted to tell you i tried to post message but it is too long. you can find it at the nw forum under it's about the women. the title is- ARIEL X AND DIA- US CHAMPS !